tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-60245768601642566102024-03-13T01:00:29.238-04:00The Struggles Of A Depressed MindBeauty Queen Fabuloushttp://www.blogger.com/profile/04939554870145896183noreply@blogger.comBlogger130125tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6024576860164256610.post-32078447639299247892009-06-06T13:58:00.004-04:002009-06-06T14:06:38.296-04:00{{{blows all the dust off this journal}}}<i><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family:'lucida grande';">Hello all! I know it has been a long time since I have been on here! Sorry.</span></i><div><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family:'lucida grande';"><i><br /></i></span></div><div><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family:'lucida grande';"><i>What's new??</i></span></div><div><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family:'lucida grande';"><i><br /></i></span></div><div><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family:'lucida grande';"><i>Well I lost my full-time job. I moved. I was in a car accident about 3 months ago and totaled my car. So life has been a bit crazy! I still have not gotten a new car yet. I am currently looking for a replacement full time job. Hunter has been testing his limuts with me lately. I feel somewhat overwhelmed.</i></span></div><div><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family:'lucida grande';"><i><br /></i></span></div><div><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family:'lucida grande';"><i>However, I know that there is a reason for all of this. I know that God has a brillant plan for me ahead. I am trying to take it one day at a time and go from there. </i></span></div><div><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family:'lucida grande';"><i><br /></i></span></div><div><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family:'lucida grande';"><i>I ran into my mom a few weeks ago and it was really akward. I know thta I need to have a sit down discussion with her about everything that I am sorry for. But I still don't want to have a relationship with her because I can not handle it. One person can only handle so much and she has burnt her bridge with me toooo many times!</i></span></div><div><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family:'lucida grande';"><i><br /></i></span></div><div><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family:'lucida grande';"><i>I guess that is about the shorest summary that I can possibly give!</i></span></div><div><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family:'lucida grande';"><i><br /></i></span></div><div><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family:'lucida grande';"><i>I hope everyone is doing well!!!</i></span></div><div><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family:'lucida grande';"><i><br /></i></span></div><div><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family:'lucida grande';"><i>Thanks for stopping by!</i></span></div>Beauty Queen Fabuloushttp://www.blogger.com/profile/04939554870145896183noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6024576860164256610.post-70051258141417626392008-10-30T22:36:00.002-04:002008-10-30T22:40:12.317-04:00Robber<span style="color:#993399;"><span style="font-family:lucida grande;"><em>One of the robbers was caught last night during a high speed car chase!!!</em></span><br /><span style="font-family:lucida grande;"><em></em></span><br /><span style="font-family:lucida grande;"><em>He refuses to turn his partner in though!!!</em></span><br /><span style="font-family:lucida grande;"><em></em></span><br /><span style="font-family:lucida grande;"><em>I have mixed emotions!</em></span><br /><br /><span style="font-family:lucida grande;"><em>I am happy yet scared!</em></span><br /><span style="font-family:lucida grande;"><em></em></span><br /><span style="font-family:lucida grande;"><em>What if the other guy comes and looks for me now?!?!?</em></span><br /><span style="font-family:lucida grande;"><em></em></span><br /><span style="font-family:lucida grande;"><em>I don't know what to think!</em></span><br /><span style="font-family:lucida grande;"><em></em></span><br /><span style="font-family:lucida grande;"><em>I get my company provided counseling this saturday from 3-4pm!</em></span><br /><span style="font-family:lucida grande;"><em></em></span><br /><span style="font-family:lucida grande;"><em>I am happy to be able to have this provided for me!</em></span><br /><br /><span style="font-family:lucida grande;"><em>I really think I need it!!!</em></span><br /><br /><span style="font-family:lucida grande;"><em>I really need to get to bed, but I wanted to update everyone!!</em></span></span>Beauty Queen Fabuloushttp://www.blogger.com/profile/04939554870145896183noreply@blogger.com3tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6024576860164256610.post-78421271358665724672008-10-25T00:37:00.002-04:002008-10-25T00:38:00.762-04:00My crazy days lately<span style="font-family:georgia;color:#cc33cc;"><em>Ok so some of you have mypsace and facebook and saw that I had a staus update thursday that concerned some of you!!! I just wanted to let you all know what it was about!! It really is a long story and to be completely honest I have been trying to sit down and write this entry for the past 2 days now!!! LOL! Now you see how crazy my life is! Anyhoo ..... I will just make it a long story SHORT! I was robbed at gunpoint at pagoda last Monday! VERY SCARY INDEED!!! I want to tell you all the story, really I do! But I seriously am taking time away from sleeping to be here telling you this! And that is because I love all of you and I want you all to know what is going on with me and my sometimes absences!!! I will tell you that I will NEVER forget their faces and the way I felt that day, it will FOREVER be in the back of my mind! I will never forget how it happened or anything! It is the SCARIEST thing I have EVER had to deal with!!! So Thursday I had to go to the police station to point the one out of a photo lineup! And I did just that and now I guess they just have to find the sucker. Then they can find the second guy!!! I just want them locked up FOR A VERY LONG TIME!!!!!!!! I want to tell you more of what is going on in my crazy life but I really need sleep. Next week I work 7 days (as usual) and 5 out of those seven days I work open to close (meaning 12 hour days)!!!!!!! YUK!!!!!!!!! Anyhoo ... thanks everyone for your concern and love and support!!!! Until next time....</em></span>Beauty Queen Fabuloushttp://www.blogger.com/profile/04939554870145896183noreply@blogger.com2tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6024576860164256610.post-91419347546259170392008-10-21T21:08:00.000-04:002008-10-21T21:20:01.594-04:00HELLLOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO???? ANYBODY THERE????????Hey everyone I switched my journal over to here since the closing of AOL journals was nearing!!!<br /><br />Life is still a bit crazy here for me ...<br /><br />In case you don't know ....<br /><br />I work 2 jobs, raise my 15 year old brother, and I barley have time to breathe.<br /><br />I plan on writing in here more ... that is on the days I have time to breathe.<br /><br />This is a really short entry but I just wanted to get started here in my new home!!!Beauty Queen Fabuloushttp://www.blogger.com/profile/04939554870145896183noreply@blogger.com3tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6024576860164256610.post-22560048821310426622008-03-27T01:26:00.000-04:002008-10-21T21:02:54.433-04:00Couldn't be more grateful<P><STRONG><FONT face="Comic Sans MS" color=#33ccff size=4>H</FONT></STRONG><STRONG><FONT face="Comic Sans MS" color=#33ccff size=4>ave you ever had a moment where you were doing something or something <SPAN class=correction id="">happened</SPAN> and it made you think about your life?</FONT></STRONG></P>
<P><STRONG><FONT face="Comic Sans MS" color=#33ccff size=4>Made you think about how your life has had so many twists and turns?</FONT></STRONG></P>
<P><STRONG><FONT face="Comic Sans MS" color=#33ccff size=4>Made you realize how much you have?</FONT></STRONG></P>
<P><STRONG><FONT face="Comic Sans MS" color=#33ccff size=4>Those kind of moments make me sit back and realize that I have SO much in my life that I used to think I would NEVER have. I owe it all to one person, GOD! </FONT></STRONG></P>
<P><STRONG><FONT face="Comic Sans MS" color=#33ccff size=4>He really has created a GREAT life for me! He really does take care of me too!</FONT></STRONG></P>
<P><STRONG><FONT face="Comic Sans MS" color=#33ccff size=4>I used to be such a depressed, mean, evil, moody, sad, lonely & immature person!</FONT></STRONG></P>
<P><STRONG><FONT face="Comic Sans MS" color=#33ccff size=4>Man oh man have I grown!</FONT></STRONG></P>
<P><STRONG><FONT face="Comic Sans MS" color=#33ccff size=4>And the more I sit back and think about the past 2 years of my life and how much I have grown, I am VERY VERY proud of myself!</FONT></STRONG></P>
<P><STRONG><FONT face="Comic Sans MS" color=#33ccff size=4>Call me <SPAN class=correction id="">conceded</SPAN> if you must! I don't care!</FONT></STRONG></P>
<P><STRONG><FONT face="Comic Sans MS" color=#33ccff size=4>When I think about the routes my life has taken me and where I have come out at, I am surprised!</FONT></STRONG></P>
<P><STRONG><FONT face="Comic Sans MS" color=#33ccff size=4>My life has been amazing!</FONT></STRONG></P>
<P><STRONG><FONT face="Comic Sans MS" color=#33ccff size=4>It's not perfect and it never will be. And I'm ok with that!</FONT></STRONG></P>
<P><STRONG><FONT face="Comic Sans MS" color=#33ccff size=4>My brother and I are doing great!</FONT></STRONG></P>
<P><STRONG><FONT face="Comic Sans MS" color=#33ccff size=4>My mom has decided that she no longer wants to raise Hunter and wants to sign her full rights over!</FONT></STRONG></P>
<P><STRONG><FONT face="Comic Sans MS" color=#33ccff size=4>We are both excited! Sad that it really shows how much she "truly" cares for him. But it is going to be the start of something amazing! I can just feel it!</FONT></STRONG></P>
<P><STRONG><FONT face="Comic Sans MS" color=#33ccff size=4>He is still out of school! I need to call the school in the morning and find out what is going on! I need his butt in school!</FONT></STRONG></P>
<P><STRONG><FONT face="Comic Sans MS" color=#33ccff size=4>I have taken it upon myself to help him with his education while he is out of school! He has trouble reading and spelling the most, so I went to dictionary.com and pulled up word of the day archives and gave him 10 words to learn!</FONT></STRONG></P>
<P><STRONG><FONT face="Comic Sans MS" color=#33ccff size=4>Anyone have any ideas for math, history or science?</FONT></STRONG></P>
<P><STRONG><FONT face="Comic Sans MS" color=#33ccff size=4>It shouldn't be much longer <SPAN class=correction id="">til</SPAN> he is back in school, but I want to keep him on track at the same time!</FONT></STRONG></P>
<P><STRONG><FONT face="Comic Sans MS" color=#33ccff size=4>He has grown a lot already since he has been with me! I am so proud of him! Even though I have to stay on top of him, he is well worth the battle!</FONT></STRONG></P>
<P><STRONG><FONT face="Comic Sans MS" color=#33ccff size=4>He makes me feel like a mom! I give him chores and he does them, I help him with real life situations (Something my mom NEVER did with me), I teach him about life in general (another thing my mom never did with me), I try to be there for him like a mother should be!</FONT></STRONG></P>
<P><STRONG><FONT face="Comic Sans MS" color=#33ccff size=4>I am learning with him. He is on so many medications it's crazy! So we are learning together what they are for and side effects and so on!</FONT></STRONG></P>
<P><STRONG><FONT face="Comic Sans MS" color=#33ccff size=4>The boy is making me change my life even more! Of course for the better ... it's <SPAN class=correction id="">helping</SPAN> me mature more too!</FONT></STRONG></P>
<P><STRONG><FONT face="Comic Sans MS" color=#33ccff size=4>He got his first job today! He starts tomorrow! :) He'll be at the mall working, so it'll be easy for me to give him rides!</FONT></STRONG></P>
<P><STRONG><FONT face="Comic Sans MS" color=#33ccff size=4>He is excited as am I!</FONT></STRONG></P>
<P><STRONG><FONT face="Comic Sans MS" color=#33ccff size=4>Everything is so amazingly well! I couldn't ask for a better life!</FONT></STRONG></P>
<P><STRONG><FONT face="Comic Sans MS" color=#33ccff size=4>God has REALLY REALLY blessed me!!!!!</FONT></STRONG></P>Beauty Queen Fabuloushttp://www.blogger.com/profile/04939554870145896183noreply@blogger.com3tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6024576860164256610.post-13597288949775869782008-03-13T23:34:00.000-04:002008-10-21T21:02:54.433-04:00Life in my neck of the woods!!<P><STRONG><FONT face="Comic Sans MS" color=#993399 size=4>Hello there everyone!!</FONT></STRONG></P>
<P><STRONG><FONT face="Comic Sans MS" color=#993399 size=4>I hope all is well for all of you!</FONT></STRONG></P>
<P><STRONG><FONT face="Comic Sans MS" color=#993399 size=4>As you can probably already tell from the info. listed above I have received temporary custody of my brother, then the battle for FULL PERMANENT custody begins!</FONT></STRONG></P>
<P><STRONG><FONT face="Comic Sans MS" color=#993399 size=4>What fun that will be!</FONT></STRONG></P>
<P><STRONG><FONT face="Comic Sans MS" color=#993399 size=4>Maybe just maybe if my brother straightens up in the 2 months I have him she will see him living with me may be the best thing for him and she will not fight me!</FONT></STRONG></P>
<P><STRONG><FONT face="Comic Sans MS" color=#993399 size=4>(Let's pray, I know it may be <SPAN class=correction id="">alot</SPAN> to ask, considering the type of woman she is, but hey it's worth a try)</FONT></STRONG></P>
<P><STRONG><FONT face="Comic Sans MS" color=#993399 size=4>He has been listening to me very well!</FONT></STRONG></P>
<P><STRONG><FONT face="Comic Sans MS" color=#993399 size=4>We have had appointments out the <SPAN class=correction id="">wazoo</SPAN>! <SPAN class=correction id="">LOL</SPAN>! I think that word is funny!</FONT></STRONG></P>
<P><STRONG><FONT face="Comic Sans MS" color=#993399 size=4>Children and youth services, family <SPAN class=correction id="">counselor</SPAN>, <SPAN class=correction id="">Probation</SPAN> Officer (P.O.) ... it just never ends. <SPAN class=correction id="">lol</SPAN>!! But he sure is worth all of it!</FONT></STRONG></P>
<P><STRONG><FONT face="Comic Sans MS" color=#993399 size=4>he is now on house arrest (electronic monitoring) for 30 days. He gets to wear the most gorgeous ankle bracelet! :)</FONT></STRONG></P>
<P><STRONG><FONT face="Comic Sans MS" color=#993399 size=4>We are moving April 1st to a 2 bed/2 bath apartment! Rent will be going up like crazy, but like I said, anything for my brother is well worth it!</FONT></STRONG></P>
<P><STRONG><FONT face="Comic Sans MS" color=#993399 size=4>I really need to go to bed, I just wanted to let you all know what was going on!</FONT></STRONG></P>
<P><STRONG><FONT face="Comic Sans MS" color=#993399 size=4>Thanks for all your love and support!</FONT></STRONG></P>
<P><STRONG><FONT face="Comic Sans MS" color=#993399 size=4></FONT></STRONG> </P>Beauty Queen Fabuloushttp://www.blogger.com/profile/04939554870145896183noreply@blogger.com5tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6024576860164256610.post-89078299142022816642008-03-10T22:08:00.000-04:002008-10-21T21:02:54.434-04:00J-land ROCKS!!!<P><STRONG><FONT face="Comic Sans MS" color=#6600cc size=4>I can't write too much tonight, I have to be at work by 6am, which means I have to be up at 5am!!! :(</FONT></STRONG></P>
<P><STRONG><FONT face="Comic Sans MS" color=#6600cc size=4>So I really need to be in bed right now ....</FONT></STRONG></P>
<P><STRONG><FONT face="Comic Sans MS" color=#6600cc size=4>However I needed to thank all of you for your support!</FONT></STRONG></P>
<P><STRONG><FONT face="Comic Sans MS" color=#6600cc size=4>You all truly are the best!!</FONT></STRONG></P>
<P><STRONG><FONT face="Comic Sans MS" color=#6600cc size=4>I will let everyone know how things go tomorrow! I am actually starting to get nervous!</FONT></STRONG></P>
<P><STRONG><FONT face="Comic Sans MS" color=#6600cc size=4>Is that bad?</FONT></STRONG></P>
<P><STRONG><FONT face="Comic Sans MS" color=#6600cc size=4>Ok off to bed I go ...</FONT></STRONG></P>
<P><STRONG><FONT face="Comic Sans MS" color=#6600cc size=4>THANKS AGAIN EVERYONE FOR YOUR SUPPORT!!!</FONT></STRONG></P>
<P><STRONG><FONT face="Comic Sans MS" color=#6600cc size=4></FONT></STRONG> </P>
<P><STRONG><FONT face="Comic Sans MS" color=#6600cc size=4>LOVE YA!!</FONT></STRONG></P>
<P><STRONG><FONT face="Comic Sans MS" color=#6600cc size=4></FONT></STRONG> </P>Beauty Queen Fabuloushttp://www.blogger.com/profile/04939554870145896183noreply@blogger.com2tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6024576860164256610.post-44602973639874749512008-03-10T00:52:00.000-04:002008-10-21T21:02:54.434-04:00Men, Work, Friends, Brother, etc.<P><STRONG><FONT face="Comic Sans MS" color=#330099>So my life has been having some CRAZY roller coaster moments!</FONT></STRONG></P>
<P><STRONG><FONT face="Comic Sans MS" color=#330099>I have been talking to this guy for about 3 months now ... nothing serious, just friends! We probably text once every 3 weeks! </FONT></STRONG></P>
<P><STRONG><FONT face="Comic Sans MS" color=#330099>We have recently started talking more. He told me how he wanted to make our friendship more serious, steady! He wants us to move to the next level!</FONT></STRONG></P>
<P><STRONG><FONT face="Comic Sans MS" color=#330099>Yet <SPAN class=correction id="">EVERYTIME</SPAN> I call he NEVER answers! Not a single time I have called him has he answered! NOT ONCE!</FONT></STRONG></P>
<P><STRONG><FONT face="Comic Sans MS" color=#330099>He was a nice guy when I first met him ... yet they always are in the beginning! Then they go sour ... at least for me they do!</FONT></STRONG></P>
<P><STRONG><FONT face="Comic Sans MS" color=#330099>I mean I am not really out there looking but I am beginning to fall back into my old thoughts "I will NEVER find a boyfriend, I'll never get married, or have kids!!!"</FONT></STRONG></P>
<P><STRONG><FONT face="Comic Sans MS" color=#330099>I am 23, which I KNOW is still young, but everyone younger than me and my age and older already has boyfriends/fiances/husbands, kids, the whole 9 yards! I am starting to feel left out! Is that so wrong of me?</FONT></STRONG></P>
<P><STRONG><FONT face="Comic Sans MS" color=#330099>I have only ever had 3 boyfriends, and my last one was 3 years ago!</FONT></STRONG></P>
<P><STRONG><FONT face="Comic Sans MS" color=#330099>I have dated 2 guys since then but that was it! Nothing serious! </FONT></STRONG></P>
<P><STRONG><FONT face="Comic Sans MS" color=#330099>I want to find the guy that I say I love you to and he says it back to me and we tell each other how much we miss <SPAN class=correction id="">each</SPAN> other and have been thinking of them, etc.</FONT></STRONG></P>
<P><STRONG><FONT face="Comic Sans MS" color=#330099>I just want love!!! Am I being greedy/impatient?</FONT></STRONG></P>
<P><STRONG><FONT face="Comic Sans MS" color=#330099></FONT></STRONG> </P>
<P><STRONG><FONT face="Comic Sans MS" color=#330099>Work has been crazy! Good and bad! I am still looking for new employment! I am considering taking a manager position at payless!</FONT></STRONG></P>
<P><STRONG><FONT face="Comic Sans MS" color=#330099></FONT></STRONG> </P>
<P><STRONG><FONT face="Comic Sans MS" color=#330099>I have been going through friends again! People seem to think I will continue to put up with their bullshit! But I won't! I am sick of people thinking I will let them walk all over me! WHAT?!?! Are you insane! </FONT></STRONG></P>
<P><STRONG><FONT face="Comic Sans MS" color=#330099>I miss my brother, SO MUCH!!! 2 days until court!!! Tuesday we go to court! </FONT></STRONG></P>
<P><STRONG><FONT face="Comic Sans MS" color=#330099></FONT></STRONG> </P>
<P><STRONG><FONT face="Comic Sans MS" color=#330099>Life just seems to get crazy, then it gets good, then it gets crazy again! </FONT></STRONG></P>
<P><STRONG><FONT face="Comic Sans MS" color=#330099>I remain very very grateful for everything!!</FONT></STRONG></P>
<P><STRONG><FONT face="Comic Sans MS" color=#330099></FONT></STRONG> </P>Beauty Queen Fabuloushttp://www.blogger.com/profile/04939554870145896183noreply@blogger.com3tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6024576860164256610.post-64088389790751746272008-03-07T08:54:00.000-05:002008-10-21T21:02:54.434-04:00Life as it seems<P><STRONG><FONT face="Comic Sans MS" color=#6600cc>So I just had to write in here because it has been more than a week and I said I would try to stay in here on a regular basis!</FONT></STRONG></P>
<P><STRONG><FONT face="Comic Sans MS" color=#6600cc>Well I will give you all just a small portion of my update, <SPAN class=correction id=""><SPAN class=correction id="">cuz</SPAN></SPAN> full version will have you here all day reading ... and I still need to get ready for work <SPAN class=correction id=""><SPAN class=correction id="">lol</SPAN></SPAN>!</FONT></STRONG></P>
<P><STRONG><FONT face="Comic Sans MS" color=#6600cc>My brother had <SPAN class=correction id="">ran away</SPAN> and was missing for a week and a half! </FONT></STRONG></P>
<P><STRONG><FONT face="Comic Sans MS" color=#6600cc>He ran away because my mom (<SPAN class=correction id="">psycho as we already know</SPAN>) threatened to beat him so bad he wouldn't know what happened to him then she would call the cops and tell them to take him away!</FONT></STRONG></P>
<P><STRONG><FONT face="Comic Sans MS" color=#6600cc>So he got scared and <SPAN class=correction id="">ran away</SPAN>! </FONT></STRONG></P>
<P><STRONG><FONT face="Comic Sans MS" color=#6600cc>Funny part is that when he was missing and 2 days before he was missing I called her and asked for custody and she said to me, "Please don't take him from me, that's my baby. He is the only thing that is keeping me sane!"</FONT></STRONG></P>
<P><STRONG><FONT face="Comic Sans MS" color=#6600cc>UH HELLO!! You just told him you were going to beat him and have him taken away! AND you're already insane so what's the difference lady?!?!</FONT></STRONG></P>
<P><STRONG><FONT face="Comic Sans MS" color=#6600cc>So he was found the beginning of this week and is in lock up right now! </FONT></STRONG></P>
<P><STRONG><FONT face="Comic Sans MS" color=#6600cc>Hunter's probation officer (P.O.) has persuaded my mom to give me custody when Hunter gets out! However, it will ONLY be while he is on probation then he is to return to her! UNLESS I fight her for custody, which I have all intensions to!</FONT></STRONG></P>
<P><STRONG><FONT face="Comic Sans MS" color=#6600cc>I want him to have a bigger better future! Which I don't feel that he can have living with her and her recently ex-fiance and his new girlfriend and her kids!</FONT></STRONG></P>
<P><STRONG><FONT face="Comic Sans MS" color=#6600cc>Yea my moms ex-fiances house sounds like a soap opera or reality show! DISGUSTING!</FONT></STRONG></P>
<P><STRONG><FONT face="Comic Sans MS" color=#6600cc>I did go visit my brother alst night and he was very happy to see me, he had NO idea I was coming! I came around the corner and he was sitting on the bench (it was in their lunch room, so it was on one of those benches in the lunch rooms in high school lol) and when he saw my face he started smiling! </FONT></STRONG></P>
<P><STRONG><FONT face="Comic Sans MS" color=#6600cc>I love my little brother so VERY much! I love him as if he was my own child! I have taken care of him a lot while we were growing up!</FONT></STRONG></P>
<P><STRONG><FONT face="Comic Sans MS" color=#6600cc></FONT></STRONG> </P>
<P><STRONG><FONT face="Comic Sans MS" color=#6600cc>I am looking for a new job!</FONT></STRONG></P>
<P><STRONG><FONT face="Comic Sans MS" color=#6600cc>I am looking for a new apartment (b/c of my brother)</FONT></STRONG></P>
<P><STRONG><FONT face="Comic Sans MS" color=#6600cc>I guess that is really the small update .. and I really need to get ready lol!!</FONT></STRONG></P>Beauty Queen Fabuloushttp://www.blogger.com/profile/04939554870145896183noreply@blogger.com4tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6024576860164256610.post-66015404989562358922008-02-27T19:38:00.000-05:002008-10-21T21:02:54.435-04:00Blessed!!!<P><STRONG><FONT face="Comic Sans MS" color=#6600cc>Ok. So why am I blessed?</FONT></STRONG></P>
<P><STRONG><FONT face="Comic Sans MS" color=#6600cc>Why do you think?</FONT></STRONG></P>
<P><STRONG><FONT face="Comic Sans MS" color=#6600cc>I have been thinking lately!</FONT></STRONG></P>
<P><STRONG><FONT face="Comic Sans MS" color=#6600cc>I have so much that sometimes I take for granted!</FONT></STRONG></P>
<P><STRONG><FONT face="Comic Sans MS" color=#6600cc>I have ALL 5 senses in tact still, I am able to support myself, I have my own apartment, my own car, pay all my bills myself, have a wonderful support team! (friends and a few family members)</FONT></STRONG></P>
<P><STRONG><FONT face="Comic Sans MS" color=#6600cc>I have been through so many things since the new year, BUT God still keeps blessing me. Just when I am ready to give up, he blesses me with something else!</FONT></STRONG></P>
<P><STRONG><FONT face="Comic Sans MS" color=#6600cc>There is so much more that I would like to write about this and I will, just not tonight <SPAN class=correction id="">cuz</SPAN> I have been up since 5:<SPAN class=correction id="">30am</SPAN> and I want and need some rest!</FONT></STRONG></P>
<P><STRONG><FONT face="Comic Sans MS" color=#6600cc>I just needed to pop in and say hello and get that off my chest!!</FONT></STRONG></P>Beauty Queen Fabuloushttp://www.blogger.com/profile/04939554870145896183noreply@blogger.com1tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6024576860164256610.post-50947431182434208492008-02-18T23:31:00.000-05:002008-10-21T21:02:54.435-04:00It's one of those "I hate my job" days<P><STRONG><FONT face="Comic Sans MS" color=#6600cc>Okay so here I am again today. Let's see if I can write in here daily!!! :)</FONT></STRONG></P>
<P><STRONG><FONT face="Comic Sans MS" color=#6600cc>Today I just had one of those I hate my job days!</FONT></STRONG></P>
<P><STRONG><FONT face="Comic Sans MS" color=#6600cc>It is all because of this story that took place <SPAN class=correction id=""><SPAN class=correction id="">Friday</SPAN></SPAN> evening ...</FONT></STRONG></P>
<P><STRONG><FONT face="Comic Sans MS" color=#6600cc>Starting <SPAN class=correction id=""><SPAN class=correction id="">Thursday</SPAN></SPAN> I starting feeling sick at payless (my second job).</FONT></STRONG></P>
<P><STRONG><FONT face="Comic Sans MS" color=#6600cc>It was that beginning feeling where you freeze even if it's hot and all your bones hurt in your body!</FONT></STRONG></P>
<P><STRONG><FONT face="Comic Sans MS" color=#6600cc>Well I ignored the feeling since I just thought maybe it was because I was exhausted from working so much and I needed sleep!</FONT></STRONG></P>
<P><STRONG><FONT color=#6600cc><FONT face="Comic Sans MS">So I came home and went to sleep! I started burning up! I couldn't find my <SPAN class=correction id=""><SPAN class=correction id="">th<SPAN class=correction id="">e</SPAN>rmometer. I finally woke up a little after four and couldn't take it anymore, so I looked all over for the thermometer until i found it and my temperature was 102.4, I took <SPAN class=correction id="">Advil</SPAN> and went to sleep.</SPAN></SPAN></FONT></FONT></STRONG></P>
<P><STRONG><FONT face="Comic Sans MS" color=#6600cc><SPAN class=correction><SPAN class=correction>Started feeling better in the morning so I went to work again. Started my day at payless 9:<SPAN class=correction id="">45am</SPAN>-1:<SPAN class=correction id="">00pm</SPAN> then I started Piercing Pagoda at 1:<SPAN class=correction id="">30pm</SPAN>. I had a feeling the sickness was going to come back.</SPAN></SPAN></FONT></STRONG></P>
<P><STRONG><FONT face="Comic Sans MS" color=#6600cc><SPAN class=correction><SPAN class=correction>So I started calling people to see if they could cover my shift. I called my whole staff and 2 other stores staff. No one would come in!</SPAN></SPAN></FONT></STRONG></P>
<P><STRONG><FONT face="Comic Sans MS" color=#6600cc><SPAN class=correction><SPAN class=correction>I started getting really sick. When I stood up I started to shake, my face had NO color, my eyes were extremely bloodshot,my eyes would only open half way, I couldn't remember what happened 2 minutes prior, I had HORRIBLE coughing fits, runny/stuffy nose, while I talked I would start crying (not even like I wanted to, it just came on it's own), and one time I coughed so hard I threw up!</SPAN></SPAN></FONT></STRONG></P>
<P><STRONG><FONT face="Comic Sans MS" color=#6600cc><SPAN class=correction><SPAN class=correction>I KNEW my fever was back and there was NO way I could work the rest of my shift out, that had about 5 hours left!</SPAN></SPAN></FONT></STRONG></P>
<P><STRONG><FONT face="Comic Sans MS" color=#6600cc><SPAN class=correction><SPAN class=correction>I called my boss who argued with me about leaving. I told her I had no choice, I was <SPAN class=correction id="">physically</SPAN> UNABLE to work any longer and no one would cover my shift so I would have to <SPAN class=correction id="">close</SPAN> the store!</SPAN></SPAN></FONT></STRONG></P>
<P><STRONG><FONT face="Comic Sans MS" color=#6600cc><SPAN class=correction><SPAN class=correction>This is where she should have stepped in and took over my shift so I could go home. Instead she argued with me! I finally told her, "Look I don't know what to tell you! I know I'm not allowed to close the store early, nor do I want to but I HAVE to if NO ONE will come in! You will just have to write me up or fire me and if you do I'll be taking the company to court, <SPAN class=correction id="">cuz</SPAN> they can NOT force me to stay here while I am sick!"</SPAN></SPAN></FONT></STRONG></P>
<P><STRONG><FONT face="Comic Sans MS" color=#6600cc><SPAN class=correction><SPAN class=correction>I closed the store 1 1/2 hours early!</SPAN></SPAN></FONT></STRONG></P>
<P><STRONG><FONT face="Comic Sans MS" color=#6600cc><SPAN class=correction><SPAN class=correction>Went home and went to bed for 36 hours, I was only up to potty, drink, medicine, etc.</SPAN></SPAN></FONT></STRONG></P>
<P><STRONG><FONT face="Comic Sans MS" color=#6600cc><SPAN class=correction><SPAN class=correction>I did not eat for 72 hours, I was SO sick!</SPAN></SPAN></FONT></STRONG></P>
<P><STRONG><FONT face="Comic Sans MS" color=#6600cc><SPAN class=correction><SPAN class=correction>Not good I know. But I had no desire to even <SPAN class=correction id="">attempt</SPAN> to eat <SPAN class=correction id="">cuz</SPAN> everything hurt!</SPAN></SPAN></FONT></STRONG></P>
<P><STRONG><FONT face="Comic Sans MS" color=#6600cc><SPAN class=correction><SPAN class=correction>Well my whole point is, how am I supposed to feel working for a company and co-workers who obviously don't care about my health and illness?</SPAN></SPAN></FONT></STRONG></P>Beauty Queen Fabuloushttp://www.blogger.com/profile/04939554870145896183noreply@blogger.com3tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6024576860164256610.post-3700478242832663272008-02-18T00:23:00.000-05:002008-10-21T21:02:54.436-04:00Hello?? (listen as it echos)<P><STRONG><FONT face="Comic Sans MS" color=#6600cc>~~ Wipes the dust off this old journal that has been sitting here untouched for about 3 months</P>
<P><STRONG><FONT face="Comic Sans MS" color=#6600cc>So I am supposed to be in bed but I came to check on something and read an e-mail from a person that was a regular reader here and I was one of her regular readers. </FONT></STRONG></P>
<P><STRONG><FONT face="Comic Sans MS" color=#6600cc>Which reminded me that I really need to put more time back into my journals! I think of all of you often!</FONT></STRONG></P>
<P><STRONG><FONT face="Comic Sans MS" color=#6600cc>But now that I work 2 jobs it is hard to keep up with anything!</FONT></STRONG></P>
<P><STRONG><FONT face="Comic Sans MS" color=#6600cc><SPAN class=correction id="">Alot</SPAN> has changed for me the past few months! I will not sit here and bore you with the details!</FONT></STRONG></P>
<P><STRONG><FONT face="Comic Sans MS" color=#6600cc>Major happenings: *my mom went <SPAN class=correction id="">psycho</SPAN> AGAIN <SPAN class=correction id="">cuz</SPAN> her fiance broke up with her (after 13 years) I can't say I blame the guy! She is threatening to take it to public .... <SPAN class=correction id="">UMMM</SPAN> everybody has had a breakup in their life, the public really will not find that story so appealing! What you think?</FONT></STRONG></P>
<P><STRONG><FONT face="Comic Sans MS" color=#6600cc>* I started and stopped selling <SPAN class=correction id="">partylite</SPAN> candles .. all within a month, it was just not for me! I felt like I had no support from the consultant who signed me (my boss from pagoda)</FONT></STRONG></P>
<P><STRONG><FONT face="Comic Sans MS" color=#6600cc>* My mom has told my brother he is not allowed to talk to me anymore!</FONT></STRONG></P>
<P><STRONG><FONT face="Comic Sans MS" color=#6600cc>* I having problems with my ex best friend who owes me $253.11 </FONT></STRONG></P>
<P><STRONG><FONT face="Comic Sans MS" color=#6600cc>* I have went to visit my dad in Ohio (I drove)</FONT></STRONG></P>
<P><STRONG><FONT face="Comic Sans MS" color=#6600cc>* Went to visit my best friends family in North Carolina (I drove)</FONT></STRONG></P>
<P><STRONG><FONT face="Comic Sans MS" color=#6600cc>There are many other things but I'll leave it at that for now!!</FONT></STRONG></P>
<P><STRONG><FONT face="Comic Sans MS" color=#6600cc>I just wanted to say hi to everyone!!</FONT></STRONG></P>
<P><STRONG><FONT face="Comic Sans MS" color=#6600cc>I miss you all!! (whoever still has me on alerts)</FONT></STRONG></P>
<P><STRONG><FONT face="Comic Sans MS" color=#6600cc>Here are a few pics of me recently</FONT></STRONG></FONT></STRONG></P>
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<P><STRONG><FONT face="Comic Sans MS" color=#6600cc><IMG src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEjW3-_xwOngrkHBGsgv8Q34oFIZAM0_m2qGkcx7EJL0yqRqp2_TRb5SZod6gwLzErygSAiwABmWU7yqMP7bNTnw0GmR2lDiGZJR988scs9Tq9N-Y5zYKGFheD-gPpBof57AzYCIyyAKJMA/s1600-r/pic%3Fid=e710TPiY8TpR3RACLEVem5WNkQmmammB-PQrv4xQp5Fd3Ig=&size=m"/></FONT></STRONG></P>
<P><STRONG><FONT face="Comic Sans MS" color=#6600cc>Muahzz!!!</FONT></STRONG></P>
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<P><STRONG><FONT face="Comic Sans MS" color=#6600cc><IMG src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEitbAcZ1VHSiYm928FiXn_1xjyBZc1fH6w8JVoiqfDjg0P9l2-nTHtaAFPIxWDH8TH_Sk-PLmcPp4AEgKn5Ga2ap5NzH2QyTcqnLsg1j3tY-unNRkuVv0Kfe2EMrI0yYZ5mBH1iqYmiE7c/s1600-r/pic%3Fid=e710TPiY8TpR3RACLEVem5WNka6gL5I4*lYwv4xQp5Fd3Ig%3D%26size%3Dm"/></FONT></STRONG></P>
<P><STRONG><FONT face="Comic Sans MS" color=#6600cc>Pouty lips with the curls!!</FONT></STRONG></P>
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<P><STRONG><FONT face="Comic Sans MS" color=#6600cc><IMG src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEiWrugN38qeLTxulkTe-14MYgMPl6VWDSpwyN1SVnuhvEZqyLBUkucZI7to0OtGkexjOvppuiC50Um87nQa9vojSiksO23lviDciyUepT8xJD867ff7TxFEuGdjfcskyHxfdzAVw-rvv8A/s1600-r/pic%3Fid=e710TPiY8TpR3RACLEVem5WNkY2rGLyexA01v4xQp5Fd3Ig=&size=m"/></FONT></STRONG></P>
<P><FONT face="Comic Sans MS" color=#6600cc><STRONG>Shopping at the mall in North Carolina (the date on it is wrong, I got a new digital camera & didn't know how to change the date yet lol, it was just last weekend, february 9th)</STRONG></FONT></P>
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<P><FONT color=#6600cc><STRONG><IMG src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEjN5WFEM-r7ZDArKvydjXFD-ScR3_3yCesOoABp-jmjmUyFumIBBLqjatNdedKwzSOGeL2TEDR28K3W4ZbOWCN_MQXgamjgdpCoi35ngVOdoVSwJ8cG5E-VxHiirWQPF5d2xIqmlbHCirY/s1600-r/pic%3Fid=e710TPiY8TpR3RACLEVem5WNkRaq6VpUm7fgv4xQp5Fd3Ig=&size=m"/></STRONG></FONT></P>
<P><FONT color=#6600cc><FONT face="Comic Sans MS"><STRONG>Mommy And baby head to head for kisses! He usually puts his head down like that for "head kisses" but I had lip gloss on so I didn't want to kiss his head and come up with a mouth full of cat hair EWW</STRONG>W<STRONG>!! :(</STRONG></FONT></FONT></P>Beauty Queen Fabuloushttp://www.blogger.com/profile/04939554870145896183noreply@blogger.com3tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6024576860164256610.post-59563229516717806582007-11-17T00:03:00.000-05:002008-10-21T21:02:54.436-04:00Never would've thought<P><STRONG><FONT face="Comic Sans MS" color=#33ccff size=4>So I <SPAN class=correction id="">gotta</SPAN> say two years ago when I started <SPAN class=correction id="">journaling</SPAN> here I never thought I would see the day that I would see my life here where it is at right now!</FONT></STRONG></P>
<P><STRONG><FONT face="Comic Sans MS" color=#33ccff size=4>I prayed to god the other day and just started bawling my eyes out. He has changed my life in so many ways the past 2 years. I am very blessed is all I got to say!</FONT></STRONG></P>
<P><STRONG><FONT face="Comic Sans MS" color=#33ccff size=4>I am such a happier person than I was 2 years and some odd months when I started writing here in what we call <SPAN class=correction id="">j</SPAN>-land!</FONT></STRONG></P>
<P><STRONG><FONT face="Comic Sans MS" color=#33ccff size=4>I am so very very grateful for all that god has offered me!</FONT></STRONG></P>
<P><STRONG><FONT face="Comic Sans MS" color=#33ccff size=4>Okay so what has changed since I was last here a <SPAN class=correction id="">little</SPAN> <SPAN class=correction id="">over</SPAN> 2 weeks ago??</FONT></STRONG></P>
<P><FONT color=#33ccff><FONT face="Comic Sans MS"><FONT size=4><STRONG>I got</STRONG> <STRONG><FONT color=#33ccff>my baby ....</FONT></STRONG></FONT></FONT></FONT></P>
<P><FONT face="Comic Sans MS" color=#33ccff size=4><STRONG><IMG src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEiY99BUJbaa0Avqs_HKBK8KAFQd6kuctE6-K0RwjH6NsTl2GdO6OTesBt0KD4Au1VH2zI5AfbIIsokWetZWoDJV1dUkHBBxDNTQrQDEzGDbQ4Zthj_LupQ2TKfPr0jJsyimbv8W0-DR8GE/s1600-r/pic%3Fid=e710TPiY8TpR3RACLEVem5WNkab3DV*7IHu-v4xQp5Fd3Ig%3D%26size%3Dm"/></STRONG></FONT></P>
<P><STRONG><FONT face="Comic Sans MS" color=#33ccff size=4>my brand new 2007 <SPAN class=correction id="">Chevrolet</SPAN> <SPAN class=correction id="">cobolt</SPAN> sedan ... in the most beautiful color on the market today .... blue granite metallic!!!</FONT></STRONG></P>
<P><STRONG><FONT face="Comic Sans MS" color=#33ccff size=4>*~*~* SIDE NOTE: I WILL HAVE MORE PICTURES LATER!!! *~*~*</FONT></STRONG></P>
<P><STRONG><FONT face="Comic Sans MS" color=#33ccff size=4>I am so happy!!!</FONT></STRONG></P>
<P><STRONG><FONT face="Comic Sans MS" color=#33ccff size=4>Happier than I have EVER been! </FONT></STRONG></P>
<P><STRONG><FONT face="Comic Sans MS" color=#33ccff size=4>I have also realized that I am SO incredibly happy that I am single right now as well!</FONT></STRONG></P>
<P><STRONG><FONT face="Comic Sans MS" color=#33ccff size=4>I have never in my life been so happy about so many things at once!!!!</FONT></STRONG></P>
<P><STRONG><FONT face="Comic Sans MS" color=#33ccff size=4>THANK YOU GOD FOR EVERYTHING YOU HAVE BLESSED ME WITH!!!</FONT></STRONG></P>
<P><STRONG><FONT face="Comic Sans MS" color=#33ccff size=4>I just wanted to tell you all the great news ... some of you might get an e-mail too just because I don't know who still has my alerts on and I know some of you missed my last entry.</FONT></STRONG></P>
<P><STRONG><FONT face="Comic Sans MS" color=#33ccff size=4>I have to get to bed now!!</FONT></STRONG></P>
<P><STRONG><FONT face="Comic Sans MS" color=#33ccff size=4>Thanks for all the love and support as always everyone!!! :)</FONT></STRONG></P>Beauty Queen Fabuloushttp://www.blogger.com/profile/04939554870145896183noreply@blogger.com4tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6024576860164256610.post-67158605053055678032007-11-01T23:40:00.000-04:002008-10-21T21:02:54.437-04:00YAY!!!<P><STRONG><FONT face="Comic Sans MS" color=#6600cc size=4>So what do you think this entry is about???</FONT></STRONG></P>
<P><STRONG><FONT face="Comic Sans MS" color=#6600cc size=4></FONT></STRONG> </P>
<P><STRONG><FONT face="Comic Sans MS" color=#6600cc size=4></FONT></STRONG> </P>
<P><STRONG><FONT face="Comic Sans MS" color=#6600cc size=4>one guess and if you get it wrong ... just click the big white X in the red box,lol</FONT></STRONG></P>
<P><STRONG><FONT face="Comic Sans MS" color=#6600cc size=4></FONT></STRONG> </P>
<P><STRONG><FONT face="Comic Sans MS" color=#6600cc size=4></FONT></STRONG> </P>
<P><STRONG><FONT face="Comic Sans MS" color=#6600cc size=4>Because if you don't guess right then you don't know me AT ALL!!! LOL!!!<BR/></FONT></STRONG></P>
<P><STRONG><FONT face="Comic Sans MS" color=#6600cc size=4></FONT></STRONG> </P>
<P><STRONG><FONT face="Comic Sans MS" color=#6600cc size=4></FONT></STRONG> </P>
<P><STRONG><FONT face="Comic Sans MS" color=#6600cc size=4>So you picked your single guess???</FONT></STRONG></P>
<P><STRONG><FONT face="Comic Sans MS" color=#6600cc size=4></FONT></STRONG> </P>
<P><STRONG><FONT face="Comic Sans MS" color=#6600cc size=4></FONT></STRONG> </P>
<P><STRONG><FONT face="Comic Sans MS" color=#6600cc size=4>You ready?????</FONT></STRONG></P>
<P><STRONG><FONT face="Comic Sans MS" color=#6600cc size=4></FONT></STRONG> </P>
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<P><STRONG><FONT face="Comic Sans MS" color=#6600cc size=4>Ok!!!! Here goes....</FONT></STRONG></P>
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<P><STRONG><FONT face="Comic Sans MS" color=#6600cc size=4>I took my drivers test today and .....</FONT></STRONG></P>
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<P><STRONG><FONT face="Comic Sans MS" color=#6600cc size=4></FONT></STRONG> </P>
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<P><STRONG><FONT face="Comic Sans MS" color=#6600cc size=4>I PASSED!!!!!!</FONT></STRONG></P>
<P><STRONG><FONT face="Comic Sans MS" color=#6600cc size=4></FONT></STRONG> </P>
<P><STRONG><FONT face="Comic Sans MS" color=#6600cc size=4></FONT></STRONG> </P>
<P><STRONG><FONT face="Comic Sans MS" color=#6600cc size=4>YAY!!! </FONT></STRONG></P>
<P><STRONG><FONT face="Comic Sans MS" color=#6600cc size=4></FONT></STRONG> </P>
<P><STRONG><FONT face="Comic Sans MS" color=#6600cc size=4>So next thursday I am going to look for my car!!!</FONT></STRONG></P>
<P><STRONG><FONT face="Comic Sans MS" color=#6600cc size=4></FONT></STRONG> </P>
<P><STRONG><FONT face="Comic Sans MS" color=#6600cc size=4>I am so excited!!! </FONT></STRONG></P>
<P><STRONG><FONT face="Comic Sans MS" color=#6600cc size=4></FONT></STRONG> </P>
<P><STRONG><FONT face="Comic Sans MS" color=#6600cc size=4>Okay so I really need to go to bed but I just need to tell all of you that because I know all of you wanted to know!!</FONT></STRONG></P>
<P><STRONG><FONT face="Comic Sans MS" color=#6600cc size=4></FONT></STRONG> </P>
<P><STRONG><FONT face="Comic Sans MS" color=#6600cc size=4>THANKS for cheering for me and all the support!!!</FONT></STRONG></P>
<P><STRONG><FONT face="Comic Sans MS" color=#6600cc size=4></FONT></STRONG> </P>
<P><STRONG><FONT face="Comic Sans MS" color=#6600cc size=4>LOVE YOU!! </P></FONT></STRONG>Beauty Queen Fabuloushttp://www.blogger.com/profile/04939554870145896183noreply@blogger.com5tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6024576860164256610.post-2571989412167604202007-10-30T21:14:00.000-04:002008-10-21T21:02:54.437-04:00Just a little note<P><FONT face="Comic Sans MS" color=#330099 size=4><STRONG>I am so mad ... I wrote an entry and it got deleted!!!! <SPAN class=correction id="">GRRR</SPAN> ...... So here is the short version of what I wrote!!!</STRONG></FONT></P>
<P><FONT face="Comic Sans MS" color=#330099 size=4><STRONG></STRONG></FONT> </P>
<P><FONT face="Comic Sans MS" color=#330099 size=4><STRONG>I <SPAN class=correction id="">scheduled</SPAN> my drivers exam for november 29th and rescheduled it for this <SPAN class=correction id=""><SPAN class=correction id="">Thursday at 8:30am</SPAN></SPAN>!!!!</STRONG></FONT></P>
<P><FONT face="Comic Sans MS" color=#330099 size=4><STRONG>I am so excited!!!</STRONG></FONT></P>
<P><FONT face="Comic Sans MS" color=#330099 size=4><STRONG>I will write an entry and let everyone know what happens!!!</STRONG></FONT></P>Beauty Queen Fabuloushttp://www.blogger.com/profile/04939554870145896183noreply@blogger.com2tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6024576860164256610.post-20004187686985272332007-10-18T10:36:00.000-04:002008-10-21T21:02:54.437-04:00I GOT IT!!!<P><FONT face="Comic Sans MS" color=#6600cc size=4><STRONG>I GOT MY PERMIT THIS MORNING!!!!!<BR/></STRONG></FONT></P>
<P><FONT face="Comic Sans MS" color=#6600cc size=4><STRONG>I can legally drive now!!!!</STRONG></FONT></P>
<P><FONT face="Comic Sans MS" color=#6600cc size=4><STRONG></STRONG></FONT> </P>
<P><FONT face="Comic Sans MS" color=#6600cc size=4><STRONG>WHOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO HOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO!!!!</STRONG></FONT></P>
<P><FONT face="Comic Sans MS" color=#6600cc size=4><STRONG></STRONG></FONT> </P>
<P><FONT face="Comic Sans MS" color=#6600cc size=4><STRONG>I am so exicted that I almost cried when the guy handed me it!!!</STRONG></FONT></P>
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<P><FONT face="Comic Sans MS" color=#6600cc size=4><STRONG>My life is onto bigger and better things!!!! :)</STRONG></FONT></P>
<P><BR/><FONT face="Comic Sans MS" color=#6600cc size=4><STRONG>Pray that I will be able to get my license within the next month!!!!</STRONG></FONT></P>Beauty Queen Fabuloushttp://www.blogger.com/profile/04939554870145896183noreply@blogger.com5tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6024576860164256610.post-71717771066338905432007-10-12T22:30:00.000-04:002008-10-21T21:02:54.438-04:00My life is spiraling out of control<P><SPAN class=correction id=""><STRONG><FONT face="Comic Sans MS" color=#6600cc size=4>Sometimes I think that my life is FINALLY coming together ....</FONT></STRONG></SPAN></P>
<P><SPAN class=correction><STRONG><FONT face="Comic Sans MS" color=#6600cc size=4>then it is gra<SPAN class=correction id=""><SPAN class=correction id=""><SPAN class=correction id=""><SPAN class=correction id="">b</SPAN></SPAN></SPAN></SPAN>bed from me quicker than I can realize it!</FONT></STRONG></SPAN></P>
<P><SPAN class=correction><STRONG><FONT face="Comic Sans MS" color=#6600cc size=4>I thought getting a second jo<SPAN class=correction id=""><SPAN class=correction id=""><SPAN class=correction id=""><SPAN class=correction id="">b</SPAN></SPAN></SPAN></SPAN> was going to get me somewhere!</FONT></STRONG></SPAN></P>
<P><SPAN class=correction><STRONG><FONT face="Comic Sans MS" color=#6600cc size=4>I have gotten a lot of furniture for my apartment and paying on my bills!</FONT></STRONG></SPAN></P>
<P><SPAN class=correction><STRONG><FONT face="Comic Sans MS" color=#6600cc size=4>But my goal was to save it! </FONT></STRONG></SPAN></P>
<P><SPAN class=correction><STRONG><FONT face="Comic Sans MS" color=#6600cc size=4>I need to open a savings a<SPAN class=correction id=""><SPAN class=correction id=""><SPAN class=correction id=""><SPAN class=correction id="">c</SPAN></SPAN></SPAN></SPAN>count then I will be okay!</FONT></STRONG></SPAN></P>
<P><SPAN class=correction><STRONG><FONT face="Comic Sans MS" color=#6600cc size=4>I got a raise at pagoda! </FONT></STRONG></SPAN></P>
<P><SPAN class=correction><STRONG><FONT face="Comic Sans MS" color=#6600cc size=4>But here comes the kicker ....</FONT></STRONG></SPAN></P>
<P><SPAN class=correction><STRONG><FONT face="Comic Sans MS" color=#6600cc size=4>I still have not gotten my permit because the day I was to go for it I realized the night before that I really do have the dumbest mother (and her boyfriend)!</FONT></STRONG></SPAN></P>
<P><SPAN class=correction><STRONG><FONT face="Comic Sans MS" color=#6600cc size=4>My dum<SPAN class=correction id=""><SPAN class=correction id=""><SPAN class=correction id=""><SPAN class=correction id="">b</SPAN></SPAN></SPAN></SPAN> A** mother decided to laminate my birth certificate and social security card ... and you are not allowed to .. and <SPAN class=correction id=""><SPAN class=correction id=""><SPAN class=correction id=""><SPAN class=correction id="">PennDot</SPAN></SPAN></SPAN></SPAN> (the <SPAN class=correction id=""><SPAN class=correction id=""><SPAN class=correction id=""><SPAN class=correction id="">DMV</SPAN></SPAN></SPAN></SPAN>) will not a<SPAN class=correction id=""><SPAN class=correction id=""><SPAN class=correction id=""><SPAN class=correction id="">c</SPAN></SPAN></SPAN></SPAN>cept it! So I was not going to be able to get my permit!</FONT></STRONG></SPAN></P>
<P><SPAN class=correction><STRONG><FONT face="Comic Sans MS" color=#6600cc size=4>So I<SPAN class=correction id=""> </SPAN>got a new social security card but am waiting for a new birth certificate (which w<SPAN class=correction id="">i</SPAN>ll t<SPAN class=correction id="">a</SPAN>ke sometime since I was born out of state)! And I had to wait to find out where my<SPAN class=correction id=""> </SPAN>mom <SPAN class=correction id="">w</SPAN>as b<SPAN class=correction id="">o</SPAN>rn b/<SPAN class=correction id=""><SPAN class=correction id="">c</SPAN></SPAN> I didn't know and I don't talk to her so I had to wait for other people to ask her and get back to me! Plus I was not sure what county I was born in!!!</FONT></STRONG></SPAN></P>
<P><SPAN class=correction><STRONG><FONT face="Comic Sans MS" color=#6600cc size=4>NOTHING IS EVER SIMPLE FOR ME!</FONT></STRONG></SPAN></P>
<P><SPAN class=correction><STRONG><FONT face="Comic Sans MS" color=#6600cc size=4>Because then I also realized that I needed a physical and have my doctor fill a form out!</FONT></STRONG></SPAN></P>
<P><SPAN class=correction><STRONG><FONT face="Comic Sans MS" color=#6600cc size=4>So I had to wait FOREVER for her to fill it out and now I never have time to go pick it up!</FONT></STRONG></SPAN></P>
<P><SPAN class=correction><STRONG><FONT face="Comic Sans MS" color=#6600cc size=4>So I have been practicing driving but no permit!!!</FONT></STRONG></SPAN></P>
<P><SPAN class=correction><STRONG><FONT face="Comic Sans MS" color=#6600cc size=4>I am starting to get discouraged about my license and car!</FONT></STRONG></SPAN></P>
<P><SPAN class=correction><STRONG><FONT face="Comic Sans MS" color=#6600cc size=4>I have not drove in the rain, snow (obviously), or tried to <SPAN class=correction id="">parallel</SPAN> park.</FONT></STRONG></SPAN></P>
<P><SPAN class=correction><STRONG><FONT face="Comic Sans MS" color=#6600cc size=4>I am beginning to think I will never get ANYWHERE in life!</FONT></STRONG></SPAN></P>Beauty Queen Fabuloushttp://www.blogger.com/profile/04939554870145896183noreply@blogger.com3tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6024576860164256610.post-39364486153752882432007-09-02T09:31:00.000-04:002008-10-21T21:02:54.438-04:00Just a brief update<P><STRONG><FONT face="Comic Sans MS" color=#6600cc size=4>So I have been getting a lot of e-mails asking where I have been!?!</FONT></STRONG></P>
<P><STRONG><FONT face="Comic Sans MS" color=#6600cc size=4>I have been living the crazy life!!!</FONT></STRONG></P>
<P><STRONG><FONT face="Comic Sans MS" color=#6600cc size=4>My best friend is having some tough time that I am trying to help her through! </FONT></STRONG></P>
<P><STRONG><FONT face="Comic Sans MS" color=#6600cc size=4>I am now working 2 jobs!</FONT></STRONG></P>
<P><STRONG><FONT face="Comic Sans MS" color=#6600cc size=4>I go for my permit this week!</FONT></STRONG></P>
<P><STRONG><FONT face="Comic Sans MS" color=#6600cc size=4>I am saving for a car!</FONT></STRONG></P>
<P><STRONG><FONT face="Comic Sans MS" color=#6600cc size=4>Work has been crazy!</FONT></STRONG></P>
<P><STRONG><FONT face="Comic Sans MS" color=#6600cc size=4>I am trying to stay in contact with my family and run a personal life all at the same time!</FONT></STRONG></P>
<P><STRONG><FONT face="Comic Sans MS" color=#6600cc size=4>So I just have not had time to sit here at the pc and write entires!</FONT></STRONG></P>
<P><STRONG><FONT face="Comic Sans MS" color=#6600cc size=4>I am really sorry! I wish I could be back in my old habit of reading and writing daily!</FONT></STRONG></P>
<P><STRONG><FONT face="Comic Sans MS" color=#6600cc size=4>I will try to keep everyone updated!! :)</FONT></STRONG></P>
<P><STRONG><FONT face="Comic Sans MS" color=#6600cc size=4>I love all of you and appreciate your concern!!!</FONT></STRONG></P>Beauty Queen Fabuloushttp://www.blogger.com/profile/04939554870145896183noreply@blogger.com5tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6024576860164256610.post-24935818481134533172007-07-19T10:19:00.000-04:002008-10-21T21:02:54.439-04:00Being A Manager S&*@%!<P><STRONG><FONT face="Comic Sans MS" color=#33ccff size=4>So I have to have a mandatory store meeting every year for re-training of how to pierce ears!</FONT></STRONG></P>
<P><STRONG><FONT face="Comic Sans MS" color=#33ccff size=4>Fine!</FONT></STRONG></P>
<P><STRONG><FONT face="Comic Sans MS" color=#33ccff size=4>Not a problem ... at least there never was before!</FONT></STRONG></P>
<P><STRONG><FONT face="Comic Sans MS" color=#33ccff size=4>Then came today!</FONT></STRONG></P>
<P><STRONG><FONT face="Comic Sans MS" color=#33ccff size=4>I planned a meeting and someone has a problem with it!</FONT></STRONG></P>
<P><STRONG><FONT face="Comic Sans MS" color=#33ccff size=4>She don't <SPAN class=correction id="">like</SPAN> the time <SPAN class=correction id="">cuz</SPAN> she has to get up early!</FONT></STRONG></P>
<P><STRONG><FONT face="Comic Sans MS" color=#33ccff size=4>Uh it's the same time as if she had to open on any other day!</FONT></STRONG></P>
<P><STRONG><FONT face="Comic Sans MS" color=#33ccff size=4>So what's the problem?</FONT></STRONG></P>
<P><STRONG><FONT face="Comic Sans MS" color=#33ccff size=4>I have no idea!</FONT></STRONG></P>
<P><STRONG><FONT face="Comic Sans MS" color=#33ccff size=4>She tried guilt tripping me and saying how she has to get up early and has to travel!</FONT></STRONG></P>
<P><STRONG><FONT face="Comic Sans MS" color=#33ccff size=4>Uh, not my problem you choose to transfer, you knew <SPAN class=correction id="">you</SPAN> would have to travel!</FONT></STRONG></P>
<P><STRONG><FONT face="Comic Sans MS" color=#33ccff size=4>I do appreciate her, but I am sorry I am the manager and this is all I could do!</FONT></STRONG></P>
<P><STRONG><FONT face="Comic Sans MS" color=#33ccff size=4>I have to have the meeting by a certain day and she knows that!</FONT></STRONG></P>
<P><STRONG><FONT face="Comic Sans MS" color=#33ccff size=4>We <SPAN class=correction id="">canceled</SPAN> last weeks meeting because she was out sick!</FONT></STRONG></P>
<P><STRONG><FONT face="Comic Sans MS" color=#33ccff size=4>So don't try guilt tripping me!</FONT></STRONG></P>
<P><STRONG><FONT face="Comic Sans MS" color=#33ccff size=4>I'm not the one for that crap!</FONT></STRONG></P>
<P><STRONG><FONT face="Comic Sans MS" color=#33ccff size=4>I have done plenty of things I didn't want to when I was the key sales and assistant manager ... it's what happens when you are not the manager!</FONT></STRONG></P>
<P><STRONG><FONT face="Comic Sans MS" color=#33ccff size=4>When you work hard and have been there as long as I have then maybe you can earn the title and rights I have!</FONT></STRONG></P>
<P><STRONG><FONT face="Comic Sans MS" color=#33ccff size=4>But until then I am YOUR boss and we do things my way!</FONT></STRONG></P>
<P><STRONG><FONT face="Comic Sans MS" color=#33ccff size=4>Not saying I never do things to <SPAN class=correction id="">accommodate</SPAN> them, <SPAN class=correction id="">cuz</SPAN> believe me I do!</FONT></STRONG></P>
<P><STRONG><FONT face="Comic Sans MS" color=#33ccff size=4>I worked two 12 hour days this week to accommodate them, one was sick saturday and the other couldn't come in so I stayed open to close .... then yesterday one had to get surgery and the other one had plans so I stayed open to close again! </FONT></STRONG></P>
<P><STRONG><FONT face="Comic Sans MS" color=#33ccff size=4>Yet I am to feel sorry becasue you have to come to work for a 8 and a 1/2 hour shift?</FONT></STRONG></P>
<P><STRONG><FONT face="Comic Sans MS" color=#33ccff size=4>UH sorry NO!</FONT></STRONG></P>
<P><STRONG><FONT face="Comic Sans MS" color=#33ccff size=4>I don't feel sorry!</FONT></STRONG></P>
<P><STRONG><FONT face="Comic Sans MS" color=#33ccff size=4>I just worked a 48 hour week!</FONT></STRONG></P>
<P><STRONG><FONT face="Comic Sans MS" color=#33ccff size=4>So no I don't feel sorry!</FONT></STRONG></P>
<P><STRONG><FONT face="Comic Sans MS" color=#33ccff size=4>My boss got up at 5:30 the past two mornings (and didn't even get home til 8:30pm yesterday) so she worked more than me and she is not complaining!</FONT></STRONG></P>
<P><STRONG><FONT face="Comic Sans MS" color=#33ccff size=4>It's the job we choose!</FONT></STRONG></P>
<P><STRONG><FONT face="Comic Sans MS" color=#33ccff size=4>This job did not come knocking on our door, we went and looked for it!</FONT></STRONG></P>
<P><STRONG><FONT face="Comic Sans MS" color=#33ccff size=4>I am sick of this crap!</FONT></STRONG></P>
<P><STRONG><FONT face="Comic Sans MS" color=#33ccff size=4>I feel like no matter what I do for my staff I can't seem to please them well enough!!</FONT></STRONG></P>
<P><STRONG><FONT face="Comic Sans MS" color=#33ccff size=4>I'm sorry I am poor and can't run contest and such like I should and want to!</FONT></STRONG></P>
<P><STRONG><FONT face="Comic Sans MS" color=#33ccff size=4>I'm sorry I am not PERFECT!</FONT></STRONG></P>
<P><STRONG><FONT face="Comic Sans MS" color=#33ccff size=4>I'm sorry I am not like your old boss (which BTW got fired) and is loaded (humm, wonder why) and could do whatever you girls wanted!</FONT></STRONG></P>
<P><STRONG><FONT face="Comic Sans MS" color=#33ccff size=4>I'm sorry she didn't care about the policies like I do!</FONT></STRONG></P>
<P><STRONG><FONT face="Comic Sans MS" color=#33ccff size=4>SORRY SORRY SORRY SORRY!!!!!!</FONT></STRONG></P>Beauty Queen Fabuloushttp://www.blogger.com/profile/04939554870145896183noreply@blogger.com5tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6024576860164256610.post-2230839349583403602007-07-12T11:10:00.000-04:002008-10-21T21:02:54.439-04:00Explaination to last entry!<P><STRONG><FONT face="Comic Sans MS" color=#00cccc size=4>Okay f<SPAN class=correction id="">i</SPAN><SPAN class=correction id="">r</SPAN>st off let me start by sayin<SPAN class=correction id="">g</SPAN> a few things ...</FONT></STRONG></P>
<P><STRONG><FONT face="Comic Sans MS" color=#00cccc size=4>1. Thanks for all your concern, it really means a lot to me! That is the reason I write here in AOL journals! You people are so amazin<SPAN class=correction id="">g</SPAN></FONT></STRONG></P>
<P><STRONG><FONT face="Comic Sans MS" color=#00cccc size=4>2. Sorry <SPAN class=correction id="">vicki</SPAN> it took me so lon<SPAN class=correction id="">g</SPAN> to get here <SPAN class=correction id="">lol</SPAN>, my assistant called and we had to go over some things!</FONT></STRONG></P>
<P><STRONG><FONT face="Comic Sans MS" color=#00cccc size=4>3. I'm sorry I was random in my last entry. I just needed to vent and I thought it would make me feel better, but it didn't!</FONT></STRONG></P>
<P><STRONG><FONT face="Comic Sans MS" color=#00cccc size=4>Now onto explainin<SPAN class=correction id="">g</SPAN> the last entry .. (and what happened this past weekend with meetin<SPAN class=correction id="">g</SPAN> my daddy)</FONT></STRONG></P>
<P><STRONG><FONT face="Comic Sans MS" color=#00cccc size=4>Okay! The last entry was written because o<SPAN class=correction id="">f</SPAN> what happened this weekend so I will start there!</FONT></STRONG></P>
<P><STRONG><FONT face="Comic Sans MS" color=#00cccc size=4>My daddy came into town <SPAN class=correction id="">sunday</SPAN> afternoon and he came to my house as soon as he got into town and I'll just tell you this, when I opened my door to greet him and his<SPAN class=correction id=""> </SPAN><SPAN class=correction id="">g</SPAN>/f, I was so shocked that I didn't know what to do!</FONT></STRONG></P>
<P><STRONG><FONT face="Comic Sans MS" color=#00cccc size=4>I usually am a very <SPAN class=correction id="">emotional</SPAN> person, but I think from all the other cryin<SPAN class=correction id="">g</SPAN> I could not cry when he got here, although I felt like I wanted to!</FONT></STRONG></P>
<P><STRONG><FONT face="Comic Sans MS" color=#00cccc size=4>So we talked and I showed him my apartment then we left!</FONT></STRONG></P>
<P><STRONG><FONT face="Comic Sans MS" color=#00cccc size=4>It was on to surprise my grandparents!!</FONT></STRONG></P>
<P><STRONG><FONT face="Comic Sans MS" color=#00cccc size=4>Th<SPAN class=correction id="">e</SPAN>y had NO idea he was bringing me<SPAN class=correction id=""> </SPAN>over, they knew he was coming but not me!</FONT></STRONG></P>
<P><STRONG><FONT face="Comic Sans MS" color=#00cccc size=4>So we get there and I <SPAN class=correction id="">layed</SPAN> down in the backseat in case they were sittin<SPAN class=correction id="">g</SPAN> outside and they were not.</FONT></STRONG></P>
<P><STRONG><FONT face="Comic Sans MS" color=#00cccc size=4>But as soon as anyone pulls in the driveway my grandma comes out!</FONT></STRONG></P>
<P><STRONG><FONT face="Comic Sans MS" color=#00cccc size=4>So sh<SPAN class=correction id="">e</SPAN> came out as we were getting out the car, so I hid behind my grandparents van! Then my dad put his arm around me and walked from behind<SPAN class=correction id=""> </SPAN>the van and she had NO idea who I was so she just kept talking to my daddy!</FONT></STRONG></P>
<P><STRONG><FONT face="Comic Sans MS" color=#00cccc size=4>Then my daddy said to her, "Do you know who this is?"<BR/>"No!"<BR/>"This is Theresa!"<BR/>"<SPAN class=correction id="">OMG</SPAN> Girl! Get <SPAN class=correction id="">u</SPAN>p here {she was on the porch} and give me a hug and kiss! I missed you so much! It is really good to see you!"</FONT></STRONG></P>
<P><STRONG><FONT face="Comic Sans MS" color=#00cccc size=4>It got very sentimental, although I could still not cry .. I was all cried out!!</FONT></STRONG></P>
<P><STRONG><FONT face="Comic Sans MS" color=#00cccc size=4>Then my grandpa and Uncle <SPAN class=correction id="">Nate</SPAN> was on the side workin<SPAN class=correction id="">g</SPAN> on the tractor so we walked over to say hi and I got the same reaction from my grandpa and Uncle!</FONT></STRONG></P>
<P><STRONG><FONT face="Comic Sans MS" color=#00cccc size=4>It finally felt so good to be appreciated and loved by my own blood! I was so happy to see them!</FONT></STRONG></P>
<P><STRONG><FONT face="Comic Sans MS" color=#00cccc size=4>Later that night I was blessed to also see my aunt <SPAN class=correction id="">Margaret</SPAN> and great aunt <SPAN class=correction id="">Marie</SPAN> {where I got my middle name from}! </FONT></STRONG></P>
<P><STRONG><FONT face="Comic Sans MS" color=#00cccc size=4>Those two were so happy to see me to!</FONT></STRONG></P>
<P><STRONG><FONT face="Comic Sans MS" color=#00cccc size=4>I was told by the whole family that I better NOT disappear like that again! Although they understood that it was not in my control in the first place!</FONT></STRONG></P>
<P><STRONG><FONT face="Comic Sans MS" color=#00cccc size=4>I was given all my aunts and uncles phone numbers and address' and told not to be a stranger!</FONT></STRONG></P>
<P><STRONG><FONT face="Comic Sans MS" color=#00cccc size=4>So there goes the outcome o<SPAN class=correction id="">f</SPAN> the reunion!</FONT></STRONG></P>
<P><STRONG><FONT face="Comic Sans MS" color=#00cccc size=4>Now as for the funeral .<SPAN class=correction id="">.</SPAN>. my mom came of course .. and she started a HUGE scene at the funeral parlor .. about my daddy bein<SPAN class=correction id="">g</SPAN> there!</FONT></STRONG></P>
<P><STRONG><FONT face="Comic Sans MS" color=#00cccc size=4>She got us kicked out <SPAN class=correction id="">cuz</SPAN> she would not just shut up!</FONT></STRONG></P>
<P><STRONG><FONT face="Comic Sans MS" color=#00cccc size=4>So we all went outside and talked and she fi<SPAN class=correction id="">n</SPAN>ally calmed down (surprised the heck<SPAN class=correction id=""> </SPAN>out of me, I thought she was n<SPAN class=correction id="">o</SPAN>t capable of being calm)! Then we all went back in and it was all fine!</FONT></STRONG></P>
<P><STRONG><FONT face="Comic Sans MS" color=#00cccc size=4>She p<SPAN class=correction id="">layed</SPAN> that she really cared about me "Theresa I love you, I miss you!"</FONT></STRONG></P>
<P><STRONG><FONT face="Comic Sans MS" color=#00cccc size=4>For many o<SPAN class=correction id="">f</SPAN> you who don't know how my mother is let me explain somethin<SPAN class=correction id="">g</SPAN> ... she is VERY <SPAN class=correction id="">vindictive</SPAN>, lyin<SPAN class=correction id="">g</SPAN>, immature (even at the age o<SPAN class=correction id="">f</SPAN> 48), et<SPAN class=correction id="">c</SPAN>. </FONT></STRONG></P>
<P><STRONG><FONT face="Comic Sans MS" color=#00cccc size=4>She ONLY did that because I was with my daddy! Had I came by mysel<SPAN class=correction id="">f</SPAN> or with ANYONE else, she NEVER would have talked to me that day! </FONT></STRONG></P>
<P><STRONG><FONT face="Comic Sans MS" color=#00cccc size=4>So I just gritted my teeth and just didn't say <SPAN class=correction id="">anything</SPAN> there!</FONT></STRONG></P>
<P><STRONG><FONT face="Comic Sans MS" color=#00cccc size=4>Well I figured sh<SPAN class=correction id="">e</SPAN> was alright with everything .. then she called me <SPAN class=correction id="">tuesday</SPAN> night(the day <SPAN class=correction id="">a</SPAN>fte<SPAN class=correction id="">r</SPAN> the funeral) and said she was going to k<SPAN class=correction id="">i</SPAN>ll herself <SPAN class=correction id="">b</SPAN>/c I was talking to my daddy!</FONT></STRONG></P>
<P><STRONG><FONT face="Comic Sans MS" color=#00cccc size=4>Oh yea, that's my mom! That's how I know the lady! </FONT></STRONG></P>
<P><STRONG><FONT face="Comic Sans MS" color=#00cccc size=4>I KNEW she would not be able to handle this!</FONT></STRONG></P>
<P><STRONG><FONT face="Comic Sans MS" color=#00cccc size=4>She cal<SPAN class=correction id="">l</SPAN>ed me and A**hole! Said all I do is think o<SPAN class=correction id="">f</SPAN> mysel<SPAN class=correction id="">f</SPAN>, I am such a horrible person/child etc. She told me she wants nothin<SPAN class=correction id="">g</SPAN> to <SPAN class=correction id="">d</SPAN>o with me now, she is giving me ALL pictures that have me in <SPAN class=correction id="">i</SPAN>t, she doesn't want anything o<SPAN class=correction id="">f</SPAN> me!</FONT></STRONG></P>
<P><STRONG><FONT face="Comic Sans MS" color=#00cccc size=4>Yep this is how I know my mom and for her to act over MY life!</FONT></STRONG></P>
<P><STRONG><FONT face="Comic Sans MS" color=#00cccc size=4>I told her I am 22 years old and i<SPAN class=correction id="">f</SPAN> I feel like <SPAN class=correction id="">talking</SPAN> to my daddy then I am! She don't have to <SPAN class=correction id="">talk</SPAN> to him and love him up, I just want him and his family to be a part of my life!</FONT></STRONG></P>
<P><STRONG><FONT face="Comic Sans MS" color=#00cccc size=4>My sister is pissed .. nothin<SPAN class=correction id="">g</SPAN> new eh?!?</FONT></STRONG></P>
<P><STRONG><FONT face="Comic Sans MS" color=#00cccc size=4>She was already pissed at me and hatin<SPAN class=correction id="">g</SPAN> me for almost 2 years!!! So what has this changed? NOT A THING!!!</FONT></STRONG></P>
<P><STRONG><FONT face="Comic Sans MS" color=#00cccc size=4>So now do you see the <SPAN class=correction id="">psycho's</SPAN> I deal with in my family?</FONT></STRONG></P>
<P><STRONG><FONT face="Comic Sans MS" color=#00cccc size=4>I seriously don't know how I deal with it sometimes ... and how did I come out so much better when this is what I was surrounded by? {hence my last entry .. I felt like I just couldn't take it anymore and I should just disappear and start a BRAND new life somewhere far from here and not talk to ANYONE, not even my friends when I left}</FONT></STRONG></P>
<P><STRONG><FONT face="Comic Sans MS" color=#00cccc size=4>I have more I could say <SPAN class=correction id="">about</SPAN> the weekend but this is lon<SPAN class=correction id="">g</SPAN> enough so I will end it here ....</FONT></STRONG></P>
<P><STRONG><FONT face="Comic Sans MS" color=#00cccc size=4>As always thanks for readin<SPAN class=correction id="">g</SPAN> and enjoy the day!!!</FONT></STRONG></P>
<P><STRONG><FONT face="Comic Sans MS" color=#00cccc size=4>(Currently listenin<SPAN class=correction id="">g</SPAN> to ~ <SPAN class=correction id="">Rihanna</SPAN> ~ Shut Up & Drive)</FONT></STRONG></P>
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<P><STRONG><FONT face="Comic Sans MS" color=#6600cc size=7>I SIMPLY CAN'T DO IT ANYMORE!!!!!</FONT></STRONG></P>
<P><STRONG><FONT face="Comic Sans MS" color=#6600cc size=7>I CAN'T HANDLE IT ANYMORE!!!</FONT></STRONG></P>
<P><STRONG><FONT face="Comic Sans MS" color=#6600cc size=6>SHOULD I JUST LEAVE YOU ALL ALONE??</FONT></STRONG></P>
<P><STRONG><FONT face="Comic Sans MS" color=#6600cc size=6>IS THAT WHAT YOU WANT???</FONT></STRONG></P>
<P><STRONG><FONT face="Comic Sans MS" color=#6600cc size=6>YOU WANT ME OUT OF THE WAY???</FONT></STRONG></P>
<P><STRONG><FONT face="Comic Sans MS" color=#6600cc size=6>FINE, <FONT size=5>consider me gone!!!!</FONT></FONT></STRONG></P>
<P><STRONG><FONT face="Comic Sans MS" color=#6600cc size=6></FONT></STRONG> </P>Beauty Queen Fabuloushttp://www.blogger.com/profile/04939554870145896183noreply@blogger.com6tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6024576860164256610.post-48368695240043329622007-07-06T17:08:00.000-04:002008-10-21T21:02:54.440-04:00I talked to my dad!!<P><STRONG><FONT face="Comic Sans MS" color=#33ccff size=4>So I just got off the phone with my dad!</FONT></STRONG></P>
<P><STRONG><FONT face="Comic Sans MS" color=#33ccff size=4>Man was that ever scary!!</FONT></STRONG></P>
<P><STRONG><FONT face="Comic Sans MS" color=#33ccff size=4>He really sounds sincere!</FONT></STRONG></P>
<P><STRONG><FONT face="Comic Sans MS" color=#33ccff size=4>But I mean I have been HORRIBLE at judging people!</FONT></STRONG></P>
<P><STRONG><FONT face="Comic Sans MS" color=#33ccff size=4>Let's hope this one is one that I am right about!!</FONT></STRONG></P>
<P><STRONG><FONT face="Comic Sans MS" color=#33ccff size=4>Hearing his voice was actually kinda soothing!</FONT></STRONG></P>
<P><STRONG><FONT face="Comic Sans MS" color=#33ccff size=4>Who would've thought!!</FONT></STRONG></P>
<P><STRONG><FONT face="Comic Sans MS" color=#33ccff size=4>I have two pictures of him and I when I was REAL little, here in front of me on the desk by my monitior (they've been they almost all day)!</FONT></STRONG></P>
<P><STRONG><FONT face="Comic Sans MS" color=#33ccff size=4>He looks so innocent in those pictures!</FONT></STRONG></P>
<P><STRONG><FONT face="Comic Sans MS" color=#33ccff size=4>He looks like an innocent daddy!</FONT></STRONG></P>
<P><STRONG><FONT face="Comic Sans MS" color=#33ccff size=4>I miss him holding me and calling me his little girl </FONT></STRONG></P>
<P><STRONG><FONT face="Comic Sans MS" color=#33ccff size=4>And me standing on the edge of the couch to give him kisses goodbye when he walked out the door for work!</FONT></STRONG></P>
<P><STRONG><FONT face="Comic Sans MS" color=#33ccff size=4>My dad went to jail before I started school so I was home to say goodbye everyday!</FONT></STRONG></P>
<P><STRONG><FONT face="Comic Sans MS" color=#33ccff size=4>I miss him and love him more than I really ever thought!</FONT></STRONG></P>
<P><STRONG><FONT face="Comic Sans MS" color=#33ccff size=4>He was so happy to hear my voice!</FONT></STRONG></P>
<P><STRONG><FONT face="Comic Sans MS" color=#33ccff size=4>I felt loved by a family member for the first time in a very very long time and I almost started crying!</FONT></STRONG></P>
<P><STRONG><FONT face="Comic Sans MS" color=#33ccff size=4>We didn't get to talk long because he was running errands so he could come this weekend to be here for my grandfathers funeral (which is monday)!</FONT></STRONG></P>
<P><STRONG><FONT face="Comic Sans MS" color=#33ccff size=4>Here is a clip of our convo that really gets me stirred up as I replay it in my head .. anything in {} is what I said in response to him!</FONT></STRONG></P>
<P><STRONG><FONT face="Comic Sans MS" color=#33ccff size=4>He said "Theresa you sound just like my sister! {who Aunt ruth} And I know I haven't seen you in a long time {17 years} but hopefully I can this weekend {are you coming to grandpa's funeral?}!"</FONT></STRONG></P>
<P><STRONG><FONT face="Comic Sans MS" color=#33ccff size=4>He said he is trying really hard to get everything done so he can come!</FONT></STRONG></P>
<P><STRONG><FONT face="Comic Sans MS" color=#33ccff size=4>I hope he can!</FONT></STRONG></P>
<P><STRONG><FONT face="Comic Sans MS" color=#33ccff size=4>Do you know how good it would be to see him after 17 years??</FONT></STRONG></P>
<P><STRONG><FONT face="Comic Sans MS" color=#33ccff size=4>I know my mom and sister is going to be extremely pissed off!</FONT></STRONG></P>
<P><STRONG><FONT face="Comic Sans MS" color=#33ccff size=4>My mom won't ever want to talk to me for sure now!!! <BR/>(shoot probably even my sister)</FONT></STRONG></P>
<P><STRONG><FONT face="Comic Sans MS" color=#33ccff size=4>She will never want me as her daughter ..</FONT></STRONG></P>
<P><STRONG><FONT face="Comic Sans MS" color=#33ccff size=4>I can't help it, I need my daddy!</FONT></STRONG></P>
<P><STRONG><FONT face="Comic Sans MS" color=#33ccff size=4>I need to be a grown up and have my family!</FONT></STRONG></P>
<P><STRONG><FONT face="Comic Sans MS" color=#33ccff size=4>I am SICK of being a lonely person and EVERY holiday I hear everyone talk about how their family had a get together and I sit at home every holiday and do NOTHING!</FONT></STRONG></P>
<P><STRONG><FONT face="Comic Sans MS" color=#33ccff size=4>I get depressed and cry every holiday!</FONT></STRONG></P>
<P><STRONG><FONT face="Comic Sans MS" color=#33ccff size=4>I can't be that person anymore!</FONT></STRONG></P>
<P><STRONG><FONT face="Comic Sans MS" color=#33ccff size=4>I just can't!</FONT></STRONG></P>
<P><STRONG><FONT face="Comic Sans MS" color=#33ccff size=4>Plus my mom don't talk to me now as it is ... more my choice than hers ..</FONT></STRONG></P>
<P><STRONG><FONT face="Comic Sans MS" color=#33ccff size=4>She has caused me enough pain to last me a lifetime!</FONT></STRONG></P>
<P><STRONG><FONT face="Comic Sans MS" color=#33ccff size=4>So her getting mad at me and not wanting to talk to me ever again probably would be the best thing ever!</FONT></STRONG></P>
<P><STRONG><FONT face="Comic Sans MS" color=#33ccff size=4>I tried to forgive that woman and she took advantage of me time after time after time .. and well I am sick of it now!!</FONT></STRONG></P>
<P><STRONG><FONT face="Comic Sans MS" color=#33ccff size=4>I mean I forgave her and I forgave him ... I may not understand his at all ... but I know people change and I am trying to give my daddy the benefit of the doubt! So it's only fair I forgave him, she had her turn and destroyed it! And if he does then I guess I will be back at aquare one with no one!! But I gotta give him a try!!</FONT></STRONG></P>
<P><STRONG><FONT face="Comic Sans MS" color=#33ccff size=4>My dad, oh my that makes me cry just to say that or even type that and it really be my dad and not my mom's fiance!! </FONT></STRONG></P>
<P><STRONG><FONT face="Comic Sans MS" color=#33ccff size=4>Anyways my dad is suppossed to call me back later tonight!</FONT></STRONG></P>
<P><STRONG><FONT face="Comic Sans MS" color=#33ccff size=4>He was driving when I called him!</FONT></STRONG></P>
<P><STRONG><FONT face="Comic Sans MS" color=#33ccff size=4>I am still scared but I really feel this is the beginning of a new and beautiful thing!</FONT></STRONG></P>
<P><STRONG><FONT face="Comic Sans MS" color=#33ccff size=4>Tears have been falling from these eyes for the past 3 or 4 hours off and on!</FONT></STRONG></P>
<P><STRONG><FONT face="Comic Sans MS" color=#33ccff size=4>Today was a very trying day but yet a good one!!</FONT></STRONG></P>
<P><STRONG><FONT face="Comic Sans MS" color=#33ccff size=4>But there will only be more to come ... I mean we only talked for about 5-10 mins.</FONT></STRONG></P>
<P><STRONG><FONT face="Comic Sans MS" color=#33ccff size=4>So there is SO much we need to discuss!</FONT></STRONG></P>
<P><STRONG><FONT face="Comic Sans MS" color=#33ccff size=4>I know he is happy!! I just know it! I could hear it in his voice!</FONT></STRONG></P>
<P><STRONG><FONT face="Comic Sans MS" color=#33ccff size=4>He said that I had answered his prayers!</FONT></STRONG></P>
<P><STRONG><FONT face="Comic Sans MS" color=#33ccff size=4>So we shall see ...</FONT></STRONG></P>
<P><STRONG><FONT face="Comic Sans MS" color=#33ccff size=4>stay tuned for more info!!!</FONT></STRONG></P>
<P><FONT color=#33ccff><FONT face="Comic Sans MS"><FONT size=4><STRONG>Currently listening to Pink ~ Family <FONT color=#33ccff>Portrait</FONT></STRONG></FONT></FONT></FONT></P>
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<P><FONT face="Comic Sans MS" color=#33ccff size=4><STRONG>And in case you never this song ... </STRONG></FONT></P>
<P><FONT face="Comic Sans MS" color=#33ccff size=4><STRONG>Here is a video with the lyrics</STRONG></FONT></P>
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<P><FONT face="Comic Sans MS" color=#33ccff size=4><STRONG>Oh and look below at the last entry ... I called his parents too!!!</STRONG></FONT></P>Beauty Queen Fabuloushttp://www.blogger.com/profile/04939554870145896183noreply@blogger.com7tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6024576860164256610.post-4975297072479741292007-07-06T14:57:00.000-04:002008-10-21T21:02:54.440-04:00Phone call to paternal grandparents!!<P><STRONG><FONT face="Comic Sans MS" color=#6600cc size=4>This is so hard for me!</FONT></STRONG></P>
<P><STRONG><FONT face="Comic Sans MS" color=#6600cc size=4>I knew this would be hard but I guess I didn't think this would be the result!!!</FONT></STRONG></P>
<P><STRONG><FONT face="Comic Sans MS" color=#6600cc size=4>I called my paternal grandparents and no one answered the phone and I didn't know how to explain myself on their answering machine so I hung up!!</FONT></STRONG></P>
<P><STRONG><FONT face="Comic Sans MS" color=#6600cc size=4>I got scared and just hung up!</FONT></STRONG></P>
<P><STRONG><FONT face="Comic Sans MS" color=#6600cc size=4>Then I thought this is NOT how I want it to be so I called back and got the machine again ...</FONT></STRONG></P>
<P><STRONG><FONT face="Comic Sans MS" color=#6600cc size=4>so I left probably the STUPIDEST message ever and sounded like an idiot trying to tell my own grandparents who I am and why I am calling after 17 or 18 years!!</FONT></STRONG></P>
<P><STRONG><FONT face="Comic Sans MS" color=#6600cc size=4>I feel like such a dummy!!</FONT></STRONG></P>
<P><STRONG><FONT face="Comic Sans MS" color=#6600cc size=4>This is so so so hard!</FONT></STRONG></P>
<P><STRONG><FONT face="Comic Sans MS" color=#6600cc size=4>I mean I knew it would be hard but I guess I was not expecting to hang the phone up and start bawling! And I can't stop! I stop for a little and just start back up again!</FONT></STRONG></P>
<P><STRONG><FONT face="Comic Sans MS" color=#6600cc size=4>Especially when I replay myself leaving that message!!</FONT></STRONG></P>
<P><STRONG><FONT face="Comic Sans MS" color=#6600cc size=4>What if they don't call me back??</FONT></STRONG></P>
<P><STRONG><FONT face="Comic Sans MS" color=#6600cc size=4>What if they heard that message and thought, "<SPAN class=correction id="">Gawd</SPAN> we are not calling that idiot back!!!"</FONT></STRONG></P>
<P><STRONG><FONT face="Comic Sans MS" color=#6600cc size=4>What have I gotten myself into???</FONT></STRONG></P>
<P><STRONG><FONT face="Comic Sans MS" color=#6600cc size=4>My aunt told me today that when my sister finds out I am calling my grandparents and our father she is going to be pissed ....</FONT></STRONG></P>
<P><STRONG><FONT face="Comic Sans MS" color=#6600cc size=4>well she can be ....</FONT></STRONG></P>
<P><STRONG><FONT face="Comic Sans MS" color=#6600cc size=4>but it has NOTHING to do with her ....</FONT></STRONG></P>
<P><STRONG><FONT face="Comic Sans MS"color=#6600cc size=4>I am my own person and I really think I need this!!!</FONT></STRONG></P>
<P><STRONG><FONT face="Comic Sans MS" color=#6600cc size=4>I miss and love my daddy!</FONT></STRONG></P>
<P><STRONG><FONT face="Comic Sans MS" color=#6600cc size=4>I know how could I miss this man when he did what he did to my family??</FONT></STRONG></P>
<P><STRONG><FONT face="Comic Sans MS" color=#6600cc size=4>I don't know but I do!!!</FONT></STRONG></P>
<P><STRONG><FONT face="Comic Sans MS" color=#6600cc size=4>How could I love him either??<BR/><BR/>I don't know!</FONT></STRONG></P>
<P><STRONG><FONT face="Comic Sans MS" color=#6600cc size=4>I have ever since I was little and never stopped!</FONT></STRONG></P>
<P><STRONG><FONT face="Comic Sans MS" color=#6600cc size=4>This hurts so bad!!</FONT></STRONG></P>
<P><STRONG><FONT face="Comic Sans MS" color=#6600cc size=4>I think more than anything else on the planet!!!</FONT></STRONG></P>
<P><STRONG><FONT face="Comic Sans MS" color=#6600cc size=4>I would NEVER wish this upon anyone EVER!</FONT></STRONG></P>
<P><STRONG><FONT face="Comic Sans MS" color=#6600cc size=4>This is so horrible!!</FONT></STRONG></P>
<P><STRONG><FONT face="Comic Sans MS" color=#6600cc size=4>I feel like I can't breathe!!</FONT></STRONG></P>
<P><STRONG><FONT face="Comic Sans MS" color=#6600cc size=4>Oh and this is only the beginning b/c in 2 mins I am calling my dad!!</FONT></STRONG></P>
<P><STRONG><FONT face="Comic Sans MS" color=#6600cc size=4>OH GAWD!! </FONT></STRONG></P>
<P><STRONG><FONT face="Comic Sans MS" color=#6600cc size=4>I can't handle this!!!</FONT></STRONG></P>Beauty Queen Fabuloushttp://www.blogger.com/profile/04939554870145896183noreply@blogger.com3tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6024576860164256610.post-8168761144332923342007-07-03T16:08:00.000-04:002008-10-21T21:02:54.441-04:00It's over!!<P><FONT face="Arial Narrow"><FONT face="Comic Sans MS"><FONT color=#ff99ff size=4><STRONG>There are so many things <SPAN class=correction id="">running</SPAN> through my mind right now ..</STRONG></FONT></FONT></FONT></P>
<P><FONT face="Arial Narrow"><FONT face="Comic Sans MS"><STRONG><FONT color=#ff99ff size=4>and I can't express them through words at all ..</FONT></STRONG></FONT></FONT></P>
<P><FONT face="Arial Narrow"><FONT face="Comic Sans MS"><STRONG><FONT color=#ff99ff size=4>Today was a day I will never forget!</FONT></STRONG></FONT></FONT></P>
<P><FONT face="Arial Narrow"><FONT face="Comic Sans MS"><STRONG><FONT color=#ff99ff size=4>I watched him take his last breath and my grandma lose it because of it!</FONT></STRONG></FONT></FONT></P>
<P><FONT face="Arial Narrow"><FONT face="Comic Sans MS"><STRONG><FONT color=#ff99ff size=4>We were never really close but he is my grandma's husband ... the least I could do was be there for her while she goes through this tough time!</FONT></STRONG></FONT></FONT></P>
<P><FONT face="Arial Narrow"><FONT face="Comic Sans MS"><STRONG><FONT color=#ff99ff size=4>My aunt Eileen actually spoke to me while we were there and she is the one that brought me home too!</FONT></STRONG></FONT></FONT></P>
<P><FONT face="Arial Narrow"><FONT face="Comic Sans MS"><STRONG><FONT color=#ff99ff size=4>Now many of you don't know this but we hate each others guts!!</FONT></STRONG></FONT></FONT></P>
<P><FONT face="Arial Narrow"><FONT face="Comic Sans MS"><STRONG><FONT color=#ff99ff size=4>Her and I lived together a while back and she went <SPAN class=correction id="">psycho</SPAN> and I moved out and we have not been able to repair our relationship since!</FONT></STRONG></FONT></FONT></P>
<P><FONT face="Arial Narrow"><FONT face="Comic Sans MS"><STRONG><FONT color=#ff99ff size=4>Today was definitely a trying day for me!</FONT></STRONG></FONT></FONT></P>
<P><FONT face="Arial Narrow"><FONT face="Comic Sans MS"><STRONG><FONT color=#ff99ff size=4>My eyes burn so bad from all the crying!</FONT></STRONG></FONT></FONT></P>
<P><FONT face="Arial Narrow"><FONT face="Comic Sans MS"><STRONG><FONT color=#ff99ff size=4>I will never forget watching him take his last breath!</FONT></STRONG></FONT></FONT></P>
<P><FONT face="Arial Narrow"><FONT face="Comic Sans MS"><STRONG><FONT color=#ff99ff size=4>Watching them take him off the medicine and <SPAN class=correction id=""><SPAN class=correction id="">infibulator</SPAN></SPAN> (I'm sure I spelled that wrong) and letting him do everything on his own and watching the end of his life just roll around!</FONT></STRONG></FONT></FONT></P>
<P><FONT face="Arial Narrow"><FONT face="Comic Sans MS"><STRONG><FONT color=#ff99ff size=4>I'll never forget him opening his eyes and me telling him I was there and that I loved him!</FONT></STRONG></FONT></FONT></P>
<P><FONT face="Arial Narrow"><FONT face="Comic Sans MS"><STRONG><FONT color=#ff99ff size=4>I'll never forget how he tried to talk to us before they took the tube out and we couldn't hear a thing he was trying to tell us ... it was all a matter of guessing!</FONT></STRONG></FONT></FONT></P>
<P><FONT face="Arial Narrow"><FONT face="Comic Sans MS"><STRONG><FONT color=#ff99ff size=4>I'll never forget seeing him lay there in all that pain he was in!</FONT></STRONG></FONT></FONT></P>
<P><FONT face="Arial Narrow"><FONT face="Comic Sans MS"><STRONG><FONT color=#ff99ff size=4>I'll never forget him and his last breath!!</FONT></STRONG></FONT></FONT></P>
<P><FONT face="Arial Narrow"><FONT face="Comic Sans MS"><STRONG><FONT color=#ff99ff size=4><SPAN class=correction id=""><SPAN class=correction id="">R.I.P.</SPAN></SPAN> Grandpa (Richard Morris) I love you!!!</FONT></STRONG></FONT></FONT></P>
<P><STRONG><FONT face="Comic Sans MS" color=#ff99ff size=4>The last thing I want you to know grandpa was that you had the best support team ever there with you today! Grandma loves you more than any words or actions could show!! She misses you more than any of us do!! After 38 years of marriage (And 40 years all together) you two have had your ways and you and her may have said <SPAN class=correction id="">somethings</SPAN> you didn't mean when you two were mad at each other, but you both loved each other very much!!</FONT></STRONG></P>
<P><FONT face="Arial Narrow"><FONT face="Comic Sans MS"><STRONG><FONT color=#ff99ff size=4></FONT></STRONG> </P></FONT></FONT>Beauty Queen Fabuloushttp://www.blogger.com/profile/04939554870145896183noreply@blogger.com6tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6024576860164256610.post-50025173043550607742007-07-03T10:55:00.000-04:002008-10-21T21:02:54.441-04:00OMG!!! I can't believe this ...<P><FONT face="Comic Sans MS" color=#6600cc size=4><STRONG>ok so my moms fiance just called me and told me my grandpa (my moms stepfather) has 24 hrs to live!!!</STRONG></FONT></P>
<P><FONT face="Comic Sans MS" color=#6600cc size=4><STRONG>We were never close .. I mean he never really did anything for me ...</STRONG></FONT></P>
<P><FONT face="Comic Sans MS" color=#6600cc size=4><STRONG>but he is family and I am sad and shocked about this ..</STRONG></FONT></P>
<P><FONT face="Comic Sans MS" color=#6600cc size=4><STRONG>I feel I need to go pay my respects and say my final goodbye!!!</STRONG></FONT></P>
<P><FONT face="Comic Sans MS" color=#6600cc size=4><STRONG>I don't want to be selfish!!</STRONG></FONT></P>
<P><FONT face="Comic Sans MS" color=#6600cc size=4><STRONG>I feel I owe the family that much!!!</STRONG></FONT></P>Beauty Queen Fabuloushttp://www.blogger.com/profile/04939554870145896183noreply@blogger.com4