Another HOT Day In My World!

It was indeed another hot day here in PA

Sometimes I really wonder why I like summertime more than winter ....

oh, that's right ....

because I get REALLY depressed at winter time!

Plus I just HATE being cold ....

not that this sweating mess is any better!

 

Anyhoo, My little man Dontae graduates from preschool tomorrow morning!

Lisa is going to come pick me up then we're going to drop him off at school at 9, then we are going to go for breakfast at Cracker Barrel then go to his graduation at 10:30am

I am so excited ....

I feel like he is my own kid!

I love Lisa's kids so much!

We agreed that they are my 'adopted' kids!

They are such little blessings! :)

 

I am a little sad thinking Mark and my situation!

I have a feeling that he is not going to be 'talking' to me much longer .....

which I keep trying to tell myself that it is probably for the best ....

but I really do like him,

but he is also VERY complicated!

I can not understand him at ALL!

I won't go into details on what happened in here .....

 

I must go now ......

I think I will force myself to bed early again tonight!

My Thoughts (Currently)

I really really really appreciate everyone's thoughts about Mark and I ...

I do need to say a few things though,

on how I feel

Now I already said that I agreed with all of you!

BUT

I have been thinking,

now when you read this,

DO NOT think that I thought this up JUST for an excuse ....

because believe I do NOT do that kind of stuff!

I admit to reality,

but I have been putting DEEP thoughts into my situation

and I have come up with this ....

1. I think the reason Mark and I argue so much is because most people PUT up a front to get the other person and then once they have them they start to show their TRUE colors, Mark & I are VERY forward people .... we say exactly what is on our mind and are TOTALLY honest with each other (now I was having a problem telling him when I was mad at him, but that's another story and I don't hide it anymore)! So with that being said, I think that's why we are NOT the USUAL two people trying to START a relationship!

2. Maybe I am not ready for a realtionship! Maybe my personal life is way out of line and I need to get things straightened before trying to add more drama to it ... because whoever said that relationships don't have drama is SICK in the head!

3. I really LIKE him! I know that telling him that maybe I'm not ready to be in a relationship, could increase the chances of us NEVER having a relationship! Which makes me want to cry, because I really do want to have a realtionship with him!

4. A fellow friend has said that mostpeople vent about the good that the one they like has been doing .... Now please remember, I am a very sensitive and depressed person and I tend to use my journal to vent about the bad going on (mainly)! So therefore, you all do not know of EVERYTHING good that he has done for me! Not saying that is a good excuse or anything but I think that is part of why many of you think lowly (is that even a word? probably not) of him!

 

He did take my friend and I for ice cream last night after her and I got off work! It was SO good too! :)

Mark and I had a serious text conversation!

That's all I have to say for now .......

I'll write more tomorrow!

New J-Lander!

I got my brother to start a journal here in this wonderful community ...

it is a private journal,

so if you want to be added leave me a comment and I'll add ya ...

he does not know how to do everything yet!

I pretty much set everything up and will ahve to help him to his first couple entries

and I am trying to get him started with some of your journals!

So once I add you ... stop by him and see him ... be gentle now!

Thanks!

FUKITOL!

I had to shre this with all of you .....

Melissa shared this with me

and well i thought it was too good not to be shared ....

It's a bit blurry  .... damn photbucket resized it!

GRRRRRRRRRRRRRR!

I'm With ALL Of You!

I have been thinking about letting mr. Mark go ....

so don't feel bad to write in your comments what you really think ...

that's what they are there for, for you all to tell me what you really think ....

don't be shy or unsure, just right what is on your mind,

I want you all to be honest with me ...

don't just tell me what you think I might want to hear,

because what I want to hear is what is the truth!

I have a headache

So I think I'm heading for bed .... I have to pull an open to close Sunday and Monday!

UGHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!

And then open again on Tuesday!

Yuck!

BTW .... Angela is back in charge .......

WHOOOOOOOOOOO HOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO!

I am SO EXCITED!

She did call me at the store tonight so i got to talk to her really fast because they were having trouble with her plane not being able to land!

But she is fine and I am ready to hand the region back over to her on a gold platter! :)

 

*update: I forgot that I got aksed by a few of you how old Mark is .... so I just wanted to add that .... he is 22!

Mark Update

I have noticed that Mark and I don't really "chat" while on the phone anymore ...

I KNEW this but it was confirmed yesterday when I got my cell phone bill

I went through the call list .... the longest phone conversation that we had between 4/14-5/13 was 27 mins.

I had plenty of other phone conversations with Lisa & Latoya that were like 105 mins. long .... but NOT a single one was with him ....

It bothers me that we don't really talk anymore

and when we do talk I feel like we can not find anything to say to each other ...

there is a lot of quiet time on the phone!

I HATE THAT!

Anyhoo, He said to me the other night that I don't show him enough that I like him ... he said that it bothers him that I don't ask him to do stuff .....

I do have a reason for this but that's not the point of why i'm telling you this ....

well I asked him to do something with me last night (I asked him thursday) and he was acting like his schedule was too busy to fit me in ....

then he noticed I got mad and was like well I'll see if I can, I'll try but I'm not promising anything!

Then RIGHT after that whole mess ...

I was watching t.v. and saw the X-men preview adn was stating how I HATE X-men ....

so he then asked me if I wanted to go to the movies with him ....

I said to watch X-men and he said yea ...

I was like, "After I JUST got done saying how I hate them, you ask me to come see that movie with you! NO!"

"Well it's either X-men or Da Vinnci Code!"

"Well I don't like either of them!"

I can't believe though that right after I asked him to do something and he "pretended" to be too busy, then all of a sudden he wants me to go to the movies to see a movie he knows I don't like!

I REALLY need to get a copy of "Men Are From Mars, Women Are From Venus"

I don't understand guys at all!

Breathe!

Well I am SUPER EXCITED ....

guess why .....

 

You got it .....

Angela comes back from vacation tomorrow ... she comes back at night, but this means tomorrow is my LAST day of being in charge!

Now don't get me wrong I didn't mind being in charge .... I am just ready for it to be over!

I don't like knowing that this is not my everyday responsibility therefore I could very much be messing something up!

I hate that our coupon percent SUCKS ... I wanted her to come back to AWESOME numbers, but I guess that's not going to happen ...

but when I listened to our director of mid-atlantic stores' message, the highest percent (with the stores grouped as regions) was at like 27% ... our region is at 20% flat .... so it is not like their at 50% or anything we are right behind them!

 

Anyway ...

enough about work ...

I have a few sayings that I have been seeing and I ABSOLUTELY LOVE them ...

Where I live there are A LOT of business' that use their signs for sayings .... that is one thing that I love about the city that I live in!

Okay I have two that I love ...

1. He who angers you, controls you!

*Is that not amazing AND true? I LOVE it!

2. You can't withdrawal anything from the bank of life, but what you have deposited into it!

* I may have gotten those words a little twisted, but you get the point! I LOVE LOVE LOVE this one!

Seeing these kinds of things around my city has been part of my positive attitudes lately!

I also seen on a hidden valley dressing truck "Today is a new day!" I think that is good too .... today is a new day and I will not let anything from yesterday bother me!

I also seen (from the same business that I saw number one at ....) "Peace begins with smiles"

anyhoo, I just thought I'd share some positive words with all of you!

 

btw ...

I didn't get to save as money as I wanted to ....

I had to get a b-day present ...

Today was Latoya's 24th b-day ....

Latoya is my key sales associate at work ....

And she got me something for my b-day back in December ... when she was having TIGHT money problems ...

SO I felt it was ONLY right to get her something ...

plus she does a GREAT job at the store!

And I had to get a few things that were necessary for myself!

I am SO mad that I didn't get to save as much as I wanted to! :(