Thursday, November 16, 2006

I've Been Gone For Too Long

Well I know that I have been gone for too long!

My stupid computer keeps acting up

and every time it goes through it's attitude problems it's another week before it works again!

 

Anyhoo, My alerts are all messed up, I guess because my inbox  got so large while I was without the Internet, so please leave me links to all of your journals so I can add you again to my alerts!

I need to get back into the habit of journaling! I miss it all!

As far as work, I finally got a full staff but now I am still working long hours due to them all being in training! My boss actually yelled at me yesterday for working all these hours and not asking other stores for help ...

I don't like asking the other stores for help because as a manager I feel like it's my responsibility to work the hours.

But Ang was saying that she does not want me to wear myself out now because the holidays are coming up and she wants me to be fully rested and ready for it!

So maybe I'll actually get my 3 days off next week, like I'm supposed to and my 40 hours (well 8 holiday and 32 working) and not have to work extra! We'll see!

As far as Mark and I ...

well, where should I start ...

I told him I didn't want to be his "friend" no more, he did not want to hear me say such a thing!

He said that he was sorry for everything that he has EVER done to me, and he did apologize BEFORE I told him that I didn't want to talk to him EVER again!

I saw a whole other side to him this past week, a side that I like and want to stick around!

Once I told him that I wasn't sure I could be the friend he is asking me to be, he started crying, and no I don't think he is doing any of this to get me to feel guilty!

I can hear it in his voice that things REALLY are rough for him lately like he says they are!

I do feel bad, but at the same time I am not going to be as nice and caring and giving like I was before all of this happened!

He has noticed that, I NEVER call or text him!

I don't even ask him to hang out! Which bothers him! I'm also not as open with him, I don't tell him everything that's going on in my life and I don't try to start a conversation, I want him to prove himself!

I told him I can not just trust him that he is really changing this time, and why should I?

he has said to me before that he was going to change and he did for a week or two, then it's back to treating me like shit! He said that without me in his life he didn't know how he was going to go on trying to be this better person that he wants to be!

He officially asked me yesterday to "DATE" him ... I didn't know what to say just because he never did the first time and now he really is showing a new side to me, he has always said about other girls being the prettiest girl in the world, he world tell me I was beautiful and my eyes were beautiful and that I had a pretty smile, but NEVER said things like I was prettier than someone else!

Well yesterday he did! I thought I was going to cry! He was telling me about some wrestler's wife and that, "she is the most beautiful woman on the face of the earth after Theresa Miller"

I melted away inside!

I really hope that change will last, because I'm going against everything I normally stand for and say ... and I decided to give him yet ANOTHER chance after I had originally said no!

but enough of me blabbing on about him!

 

As far as my apartment, everything is okay I guess, I still need A LOT of furniture!

I swear that I should have thrown a house warming party to get help with this stuff! But too late now and now I will have to work hard myself to get it all!

Well I guess that really is all that I have for now!

Friday, November 3, 2006

M.I.A.

Well I am really sorry ...

my computer broke AGAIN last week and I was unable to get on the computer ...

DAMN thing is pissing me off!

I know everyone wants to see pictures of the apartment and I would love to show them ....

but my digital camera has been broken since before I moved out of my parents house!

I don't know what is wrong with it ...

maybe cuz I don't know much about these electronics! LOL :)

I think it's because I'm using regular batteries in it!

Heck I dunno!

So as soon as I figure it out, I'm taking pictures!

 

But as far as everything else goes ...

I worked four twelve hour days in a week and a half .... making my next check have 33 hours overtime!

We get paid every two weeks but 26 of those hours was just this past week!

I worked nearly 70 hours in ONE pay week!

I am so exhausted!

I am working on my 9 day straight without a day off work week!

Mark says that he is upset that I have been so distant with him and that I am mean to him as well as short with him ...

I told him that it's not just him it's everyone and it's because I am so exhausted!

I have been going to work and coming home sleeping and getting back up to go back to work!

LITERALLY!

I'm NOT kidding ...

I have been skipping a lot of meals too!

I can't help it though ...

I get home and I'm so tired and I can't even stay awake to eat so I fall right to sleep and wake up just in enough time to get ready for work again and do the same thing all over again!

But at least I'll have my furniture soon enough I guess! :)

I'm having trouble finding a staff for my store right now!

 

So really I don't have much to write about!

All I have been doing is working!

And let me just tell you if there is a Piercing Pagoda, Piercing Pagoda Plus, Plumb Gold, or a Silver & Gold Connection store near you .... (which there probably is, we have about 850 stores under one of those names) .... you really should stop by and check out all the new items we are getting in just in time for Christmas!

I mean it too .... and if you do stop by stop back and let me know .... I would love to know how you're shopping experience was with us and what you thought of our merchandise!

If you want to find out if there is a store by you just go to www.pagoda.com

well have fun!