Yet another mans lie!!!!

Yet another man has lied to me ...

not that I should have believed him ...

I know that men lie to me repeatedly!

It's nothing new ..

I knew he was not serious about wanting to start fresh!

But I sat down and I am not really hurt by it cuz I had to think about the future ....

I can't see him and I in the future!

So it's good that it didn't work!

But Kori texted me the other day and said that he wants to make us "Official"

I had to sit down and think can I see us with a future and I can!

I hope that Kori and I can work out the problems we were having because we both agree on them but we were not communicating very well ....

but we talked about it and I think we can make this work now :)

He puts such a big smile on my face .....

he really is the one I want to be with :)

I hope he is serious about all of this!

I will be devastated if he is playing games ....

But I guess we shall see!!!!!!!!!!!!!1

Starting Fresh!!!!!

(Btw, if you seen that ^  about what music I am listening to ... yes I still listen to some old a** music .. old is better)

 

Anyhoo ....

So I just wanted to write and relieve some things off my mind ...

Something happened tonight that I am still in shock about!!!!

My ex-boyfriend im'ed me ...

now mind you we have not talked since right after we broke up ....

which was about 2 1/2 years ago ...

he was my last boyfriend!

I liked him ALOT!

I was devastated for months after we broke up!

I was that crazy chick you see in movies (like how to lose a guy in 10 days) ....

yep I was her ... in bed crying hysterically!

Thinking I could not go on without him in my life!!!

I thought I loved him ... and I even told him that!

After a while I realized why he broke up with me and could not blame him although he should have been a grown up about it and came to me to talk about it ...

instead he avoided my calls ...

he would not answer a single call ...

I'm serious not a ONE!!!!!!

Eventually I moved on ...

and I still never found a guy since him that is serious about being in a relationship!

They all sit and lie to me and lead me on!!!!

Well tonight we started talking and we were talking about what happened between us ...

well when he first broke up with me he just told me it was b/c he didn't like my sister and he also told me it was b/c she was ALWAYS in our relationship causing problems ... well tonight he told me that she told him that I was cheating on him and that's why I never kissed him or anything ....

I never kissed him b/c he wanted me to make the next move and I like him SOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO much that I didn't know how to

and anybody that knows me knows that I DO NOT believe in cheating AT ALL!!!!!

I believe if you are that unhappy then leave the one you are with then move on!!!!

NEVER CHEAT!!!!!

So I was so upset and started crying ...

I couldn't believe that she had done that to me ..

I mean I always knew my sister was a compulsive liar and treated me like dirt but I am still shocked she would go out of her way to be so cruel to me ....

and there are two reasons why I think she did it ...

1. He was SOOOO good to me! He meant the world to me!!!!!!!!

(for this next one .... PLEASE do NOT think I am trying to be full of myself and cocky .. but it is REALLY true)

2. EVERY time my sister EVER showed a guy a picture of me they ALWAYS said, "DAMN I got the WRONG sister"

This would piss her off so bad ...

she didn't (and still don't) take care of herself ...

I mean not to be rude or anything but she DEFINITELY is not prettier than me!!!!!

SO I guess she was jealous of what i had with him and had to ruin it somehow!!!!

THAT DAMN BIOTCH!!

I swear I NEVER felt so much anger in my life ...

I was ready to go find her and let her know what i thought about what she did to me!

I am so upset!

I bawled like 4 times tonight cause of what she did to me!!!!

I really liked him and she went and ruined EVERYTHING we had!!!

It was so bad that when I seen him in the mall about 2 months ago I just looked at him like "what? I don't need you!!!! See I'm doing good without you! :) along with an evil look of 'YOU BASTARD'"

well he KNEW then not to try to talk to me ...

but after we talked tonight I think we will be cool and hopefully we can work things out and get back together!!!!!

(And it was HIS idea mainly to try again and see where it goes)

STUPID CELL PHONE!!!!!!

My cell phone decided to brake on me at the worst time ever!

My cell phone charger has these two little metal pieces on it and one broke off and is inside the phone now ...

so now the darn thing will not charge and the battery is dead ...

AND I have a training conference call in the morning at 8:30am!

I swear i have the worst luck EVER!!!!!!!!!!!!

I wish this could have waited two weeks ...

I am getting my house phone turned on!

But NOOOOOOOOOOOOOO my phone just had to die on the worst night EVER!!!!!!!!

But I went down to my storage shed here at the apartment complex and I was so scared cuz it was like 11:30pm when i went down there and it's dark out and the storage room is FREAKY!!!

Now I know I don't live in the city anymore, but still people are crazy in this world!

Anyways I went down there and got one of my old cell phones ...

but now I am having trouble with that one already ...

it keeps just hanging up while I am on the phone talking ... and yes it is charged!

I hope it will be fine by the morning so i can take the training conference call or I am going to be in BIG trouble!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Life As I Know It!!!!!

Okay so I am sorry that it has been a while since I wrote in here ....

Well Kori and I seem to be doing fine!!!

Oh and I told him that I posted him in here ...

And he was not even mad at me!

Oh well if he was cuz it is already done!

As for work well it's good I guess ...

I gave the girls their reviews Saturday and it seemed to have went well!

My best friend, Jessie, and I have been talking ...

And well I might be moving when my lease is up here!

I might be moving out of town!

I am not sure yet.

I still have like 5 months to think about what I want to do!

I cried friday when my boss gave me my review ...

Not b/c it was bad ... cuz believe me it was GREAT!

But I cried b/c I had to tell her that I want to move and to keep an eye on the piercing pagoda there for me so I could stay with the company!

I hope nothing happens before I get there ....

And hopefully if I do decide to go something will open up just at the right time!

I am loving life to the fullest extent :)

I love living on my own ...

I love eating home now and not eating out!

When I lived with my mom and her fiance, I always ate out b/c they didn't buy groceries and the house was so disgusting I couldn't use that kitchen to cook anyways!

If I did buy groceries with MY money when I was living there, they would eat my groceries without asking me and I barely got any of my own groceries!

So now I get to cook dinner for myself all the time and I LOVE IT!

My mom never really taught me how to cook so Ihave been learning on my own!

let me just say I can cook ...

I am NO chef or anything (YET) but the things I can cook are good! :)

Sheesh life sure has been crazy!

I have been trying to invest in making my life even better than it already is!

My friend Nickey and I spent almost the whole weekend together!

I went to her house friday after work and I spent the night at her house and then we came back to my house saturday morning spent the whole day together and then she spent the night saturday and went home today around 3:30pm!

So all in all everything is good!