Thursday, March 27, 2008

Couldn't be more grateful

Have you ever had a moment where you were doing something or something happened and it made you think about your life?

Made you think about how your life has had so many twists and turns?

Made you realize how much you have?

Those kind of moments make me sit back and realize that I have SO much in my life that I used to think I would NEVER have. I owe it all to one person, GOD!

He really has created a GREAT life for me! He really does take care of me too!

I used to be such a depressed, mean, evil, moody, sad, lonely & immature person!

Man oh man have I grown!

And the more I sit back and think about the past 2 years of my life and how much I have grown, I am VERY VERY proud of myself!

Call me conceded if you must! I don't care!

When I think about the routes my life has taken me and where I have come out at, I am surprised!

My life has been amazing!

It's not perfect and it never will be. And I'm ok with that!

My brother and I are doing great!

My mom has decided that she no longer wants to raise Hunter and wants to sign her full rights over!

We are both excited! Sad that it really shows how much she "truly" cares for him. But it is going to be the start of something amazing! I can just feel it!

He is still out of school! I need to call the school in the morning and find out what is going on! I need his butt in school!

I have taken it upon myself to help him with his education while he is out of school! He has trouble reading and spelling the most, so I went to and pulled up word of the day archives and gave him 10 words to learn!

Anyone have any ideas for math, history or science?

It shouldn't be much longer til he is back in school, but I want to keep him on track at the same time!

He has grown a lot already since he has been with me! I am so proud of him! Even though I have to stay on top of him, he is well worth the battle!

He makes me feel like a mom! I give him chores and he does them, I help him with real life situations (Something my mom NEVER did with me), I teach him about life in general (another thing my mom never did with me), I try to be there for him like a mother should be!

I am learning with him. He is on so many medications it's crazy! So we are learning together what they are for and side effects and so on!

The boy is making me change my life even more! Of course for the better ... it's helping me mature more too!

He got his first job today! He starts tomorrow! :) He'll be at the mall working, so it'll be easy for me to give him rides!

He is excited as am I!

Everything is so amazingly well! I couldn't ask for a better life!

God has REALLY REALLY blessed me!!!!!

Thursday, March 13, 2008

Life in my neck of the woods!!

Hello there everyone!!

I hope all is well for all of you!

As you can probably already tell from the info. listed above I have received temporary custody of my brother, then the battle for FULL PERMANENT custody begins!

What fun that will be!

Maybe just maybe if my brother straightens up in the 2 months I have him she will see him living with me may be the best thing for him and she will not fight me!

(Let's pray, I know it may be  alot to ask, considering the type of woman she is, but hey it's worth a try)

He has been listening to me very well!

We have had appointments out the wazoo! LOL! I think that word is funny!

Children and youth services, family counselor, Probation Officer (P.O.) ... it just never ends. lol!! But he sure is worth all of it!

he is now on house arrest (electronic monitoring) for 30 days. He gets to wear the most gorgeous ankle bracelet! :)

We are moving April 1st to a 2 bed/2 bath apartment! Rent will be going up like crazy, but like I said, anything for my brother is well worth it!

I really need to go to bed, I just wanted to let you all know what was going on!

Thanks for all your love and support!


Monday, March 10, 2008

J-land ROCKS!!!

I can't write too much tonight, I have to be at work by 6am, which means I have to be up at 5am!!! :(

So I really need to be in bed right now ....

However I needed to thank all of you for your support!

You all truly are the best!!

I will let everyone know how things go tomorrow! I am actually starting to get nervous!

Is that bad?

Ok off to bed I go ...





Men, Work, Friends, Brother, etc.

So my life has been having some CRAZY roller coaster moments!

I have been talking to this guy for about 3 months now ... nothing serious, just friends! We probably text once every 3 weeks!

We have recently started talking more. He told me how he wanted to make our friendship more serious, steady! He wants us to move to the next level!

Yet EVERYTIME I call he NEVER answers! Not a single time I have called him has he answered! NOT ONCE!

He was a nice guy when I first met him ... yet they always are in the beginning! Then they go sour ... at least for me they do!

I mean I am not really out there looking but I am beginning to fall back into my old thoughts "I will NEVER find a boyfriend, I'll never get married, or have kids!!!"

I am 23, which I KNOW is still young, but everyone younger than me and my age and older already has boyfriends/fiances/husbands, kids, the whole 9 yards! I am starting to feel left out! Is that so wrong of me?

I have only ever had 3 boyfriends, and my last one was 3 years ago!

I have dated 2 guys since then but that was it! Nothing serious!

I want to find the guy that I say I love you to and he says it back to me and we tell each other how much we miss each other and have been thinking of them, etc.

I just want love!!! Am I being greedy/impatient?


Work has been crazy! Good and bad! I am still looking for new employment! I am considering taking a manager position at payless!


I have been going through friends again! People seem to think I will continue to put up with their bullshit! But I won't! I am sick of people thinking I will let them walk all over me! WHAT?!?! Are you insane!

I miss my brother, SO MUCH!!! 2 days until court!!! Tuesday we go to court!


Life just seems to get crazy, then it gets good, then it gets crazy again!

I remain very very grateful for everything!!


Friday, March 7, 2008

Life as it seems

So I just had to write in here because it has been more than a week and I said I would try to stay in here on a regular basis!

Well I will give you all just a small portion of my update, cuz full version will have you here all day reading ... and I still need to get ready for work lol!

My brother had ran away and was missing for a week and a half!

He ran away because my mom (psycho as we already know) threatened to beat him so bad he wouldn't know what happened to him then she would call the cops and tell them to take him away!

So he got scared and ran away!

Funny part is that when he was missing and 2 days before he was missing I called her and asked for custody and she said to me, "Please don't take him from me, that's my baby. He is the only thing that is keeping me sane!"

UH HELLO!! You just told him you were going to beat him and have him taken away! AND you're already insane so what's the difference lady?!?!

So he was found the beginning of this week and is in lock up right now!

Hunter's probation officer (P.O.) has persuaded my mom to give me custody when Hunter gets out! However, it will ONLY be while he is on probation then he is to return to her! UNLESS I fight her for custody, which I have all intensions to!

I want him to have a bigger better future! Which I don't feel that he can have living with her and her recently ex-fiance and his new girlfriend and her kids!

Yea my moms ex-fiances house sounds like a soap opera or reality show! DISGUSTING!

I did go visit my brother alst night and he was very happy to see me, he had NO idea I was coming! I came around the corner and he was sitting on the bench (it was in their lunch room, so it was on one of those benches in the lunch rooms in high school lol) and when he saw my face he started smiling!

I love my little brother so VERY much! I love him as if he was my own child! I have taken care of him a lot while we were growing up!


I am looking for a new job!

I am looking for a new apartment (b/c of my brother)

I guess that is really the small update .. and I really need to get ready lol!!