Saturday, June 6, 2009

{{{blows all the dust off this journal}}}

Hello all! I know it has been a long time since I have been on here! Sorry.

What's new??

Well I lost my full-time job. I moved. I was in a car accident about 3 months ago and totaled my car. So life has been a bit crazy! I still have not gotten a new car yet. I am currently looking for a replacement full time job. Hunter has been testing his limuts with me lately. I feel somewhat overwhelmed.

However, I know that there is a reason for all of this. I know that God has a brillant plan for me ahead. I am trying to take it one day at a time and go from there.

I ran into my mom a few weeks ago and it was really akward. I know thta I need to have a sit down discussion with her about everything that I am sorry for. But I still don't want to have a relationship with her because I can not handle it. One person can only handle so much and she has burnt her bridge with me toooo many times!

I guess that is about the shorest summary that I can possibly give!

I hope everyone is doing well!!!

Thanks for stopping by!

Thursday, October 30, 2008


One of the robbers was caught last night during a high speed car chase!!!

He refuses to turn his partner in though!!!

I have mixed emotions!

I am happy yet scared!

What if the other guy comes and looks for me now?!?!?

I don't know what to think!

I get my company provided counseling this saturday from 3-4pm!

I am happy to be able to have this provided for me!

I really think I need it!!!

I really need to get to bed, but I wanted to update everyone!!

Saturday, October 25, 2008

My crazy days lately

Ok so some of you have mypsace and facebook and saw that I had a staus update thursday that concerned some of you!!! I just wanted to let you all know what it was about!! It really is a long story and to be completely honest I have been trying to sit down and write this entry for the past 2 days now!!! LOL! Now you see how crazy my life is! Anyhoo ..... I will just make it a long story SHORT! I was robbed at gunpoint at pagoda last Monday! VERY SCARY INDEED!!! I want to tell you all the story, really I do! But I seriously am taking time away from sleeping to be here telling you this! And that is because I love all of you and I want you all to know what is going on with me and my sometimes absences!!! I will tell you that I will NEVER forget their faces and the way I felt that day, it will FOREVER be in the back of my mind! I will never forget how it happened or anything! It is the SCARIEST thing I have EVER had to deal with!!! So Thursday I had to go to the police station to point the one out of a photo lineup! And I did just that and now I guess they just have to find the sucker. Then they can find the second guy!!! I just want them locked up FOR A VERY LONG TIME!!!!!!!! I want to tell you more of what is going on in my crazy life but I really need sleep. Next week I work 7 days (as usual) and 5 out of those seven days I work open to close (meaning 12 hour days)!!!!!!! YUK!!!!!!!!! Anyhoo ... thanks everyone for your concern and love and support!!!! Until next time....

Tuesday, October 21, 2008


Hey everyone I switched my journal over to here since the closing of AOL journals was nearing!!!

Life is still a bit crazy here for me ...

In case you don't know ....

I work 2 jobs, raise my 15 year old brother, and I barley have time to breathe.

I plan on writing in here more ... that is on the days I have time to breathe.

This is a really short entry but I just wanted to get started here in my new home!!!

Thursday, March 27, 2008

Couldn't be more grateful

Have you ever had a moment where you were doing something or something happened and it made you think about your life?

Made you think about how your life has had so many twists and turns?

Made you realize how much you have?

Those kind of moments make me sit back and realize that I have SO much in my life that I used to think I would NEVER have. I owe it all to one person, GOD!

He really has created a GREAT life for me! He really does take care of me too!

I used to be such a depressed, mean, evil, moody, sad, lonely & immature person!

Man oh man have I grown!

And the more I sit back and think about the past 2 years of my life and how much I have grown, I am VERY VERY proud of myself!

Call me conceded if you must! I don't care!

When I think about the routes my life has taken me and where I have come out at, I am surprised!

My life has been amazing!

It's not perfect and it never will be. And I'm ok with that!

My brother and I are doing great!

My mom has decided that she no longer wants to raise Hunter and wants to sign her full rights over!

We are both excited! Sad that it really shows how much she "truly" cares for him. But it is going to be the start of something amazing! I can just feel it!

He is still out of school! I need to call the school in the morning and find out what is going on! I need his butt in school!

I have taken it upon myself to help him with his education while he is out of school! He has trouble reading and spelling the most, so I went to and pulled up word of the day archives and gave him 10 words to learn!

Anyone have any ideas for math, history or science?

It shouldn't be much longer til he is back in school, but I want to keep him on track at the same time!

He has grown a lot already since he has been with me! I am so proud of him! Even though I have to stay on top of him, he is well worth the battle!

He makes me feel like a mom! I give him chores and he does them, I help him with real life situations (Something my mom NEVER did with me), I teach him about life in general (another thing my mom never did with me), I try to be there for him like a mother should be!

I am learning with him. He is on so many medications it's crazy! So we are learning together what they are for and side effects and so on!

The boy is making me change my life even more! Of course for the better ... it's helping me mature more too!

He got his first job today! He starts tomorrow! :) He'll be at the mall working, so it'll be easy for me to give him rides!

He is excited as am I!

Everything is so amazingly well! I couldn't ask for a better life!

God has REALLY REALLY blessed me!!!!!

Thursday, March 13, 2008

Life in my neck of the woods!!

Hello there everyone!!

I hope all is well for all of you!

As you can probably already tell from the info. listed above I have received temporary custody of my brother, then the battle for FULL PERMANENT custody begins!

What fun that will be!

Maybe just maybe if my brother straightens up in the 2 months I have him she will see him living with me may be the best thing for him and she will not fight me!

(Let's pray, I know it may be  alot to ask, considering the type of woman she is, but hey it's worth a try)

He has been listening to me very well!

We have had appointments out the wazoo! LOL! I think that word is funny!

Children and youth services, family counselor, Probation Officer (P.O.) ... it just never ends. lol!! But he sure is worth all of it!

he is now on house arrest (electronic monitoring) for 30 days. He gets to wear the most gorgeous ankle bracelet! :)

We are moving April 1st to a 2 bed/2 bath apartment! Rent will be going up like crazy, but like I said, anything for my brother is well worth it!

I really need to go to bed, I just wanted to let you all know what was going on!

Thanks for all your love and support!


Monday, March 10, 2008

J-land ROCKS!!!

I can't write too much tonight, I have to be at work by 6am, which means I have to be up at 5am!!! :(

So I really need to be in bed right now ....

However I needed to thank all of you for your support!

You all truly are the best!!

I will let everyone know how things go tomorrow! I am actually starting to get nervous!

Is that bad?

Ok off to bed I go ...