Yet another mans lie!!!!

Yet another man has lied to me ...

not that I should have believed him ...

I know that men lie to me repeatedly!

It's nothing new ..

I knew he was not serious about wanting to start fresh!

But I sat down and I am not really hurt by it cuz I had to think about the future ....

I can't see him and I in the future!

So it's good that it didn't work!

But Kori texted me the other day and said that he wants to make us "Official"

I had to sit down and think can I see us with a future and I can!

I hope that Kori and I can work out the problems we were having because we both agree on them but we were not communicating very well ....

but we talked about it and I think we can make this work now :)

He puts such a big smile on my face .....

he really is the one I want to be with :)

I hope he is serious about all of this!

I will be devastated if he is playing games ....

But I guess we shall see!!!!!!!!!!!!!1

Starting Fresh!!!!!

(Btw, if you seen that ^  about what music I am listening to ... yes I still listen to some old a** music .. old is better)

 

Anyhoo ....

So I just wanted to write and relieve some things off my mind ...

Something happened tonight that I am still in shock about!!!!

My ex-boyfriend im'ed me ...

now mind you we have not talked since right after we broke up ....

which was about 2 1/2 years ago ...

he was my last boyfriend!

I liked him ALOT!

I was devastated for months after we broke up!

I was that crazy chick you see in movies (like how to lose a guy in 10 days) ....

yep I was her ... in bed crying hysterically!

Thinking I could not go on without him in my life!!!

I thought I loved him ... and I even told him that!

After a while I realized why he broke up with me and could not blame him although he should have been a grown up about it and came to me to talk about it ...

instead he avoided my calls ...

he would not answer a single call ...

I'm serious not a ONE!!!!!!

Eventually I moved on ...

and I still never found a guy since him that is serious about being in a relationship!

They all sit and lie to me and lead me on!!!!

Well tonight we started talking and we were talking about what happened between us ...

well when he first broke up with me he just told me it was b/c he didn't like my sister and he also told me it was b/c she was ALWAYS in our relationship causing problems ... well tonight he told me that she told him that I was cheating on him and that's why I never kissed him or anything ....

I never kissed him b/c he wanted me to make the next move and I like him SOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO much that I didn't know how to

and anybody that knows me knows that I DO NOT believe in cheating AT ALL!!!!!

I believe if you are that unhappy then leave the one you are with then move on!!!!

NEVER CHEAT!!!!!

So I was so upset and started crying ...

I couldn't believe that she had done that to me ..

I mean I always knew my sister was a compulsive liar and treated me like dirt but I am still shocked she would go out of her way to be so cruel to me ....

and there are two reasons why I think she did it ...

1. He was SOOOO good to me! He meant the world to me!!!!!!!!

(for this next one .... PLEASE do NOT think I am trying to be full of myself and cocky .. but it is REALLY true)

2. EVERY time my sister EVER showed a guy a picture of me they ALWAYS said, "DAMN I got the WRONG sister"

This would piss her off so bad ...

she didn't (and still don't) take care of herself ...

I mean not to be rude or anything but she DEFINITELY is not prettier than me!!!!!

SO I guess she was jealous of what i had with him and had to ruin it somehow!!!!

THAT DAMN BIOTCH!!

I swear I NEVER felt so much anger in my life ...

I was ready to go find her and let her know what i thought about what she did to me!

I am so upset!

I bawled like 4 times tonight cause of what she did to me!!!!

I really liked him and she went and ruined EVERYTHING we had!!!

It was so bad that when I seen him in the mall about 2 months ago I just looked at him like "what? I don't need you!!!! See I'm doing good without you! :) along with an evil look of 'YOU BASTARD'"

well he KNEW then not to try to talk to me ...

but after we talked tonight I think we will be cool and hopefully we can work things out and get back together!!!!!

(And it was HIS idea mainly to try again and see where it goes)

STUPID CELL PHONE!!!!!!

My cell phone decided to brake on me at the worst time ever!

My cell phone charger has these two little metal pieces on it and one broke off and is inside the phone now ...

so now the darn thing will not charge and the battery is dead ...

AND I have a training conference call in the morning at 8:30am!

I swear i have the worst luck EVER!!!!!!!!!!!!

I wish this could have waited two weeks ...

I am getting my house phone turned on!

But NOOOOOOOOOOOOOO my phone just had to die on the worst night EVER!!!!!!!!

But I went down to my storage shed here at the apartment complex and I was so scared cuz it was like 11:30pm when i went down there and it's dark out and the storage room is FREAKY!!!

Now I know I don't live in the city anymore, but still people are crazy in this world!

Anyways I went down there and got one of my old cell phones ...

but now I am having trouble with that one already ...

it keeps just hanging up while I am on the phone talking ... and yes it is charged!

I hope it will be fine by the morning so i can take the training conference call or I am going to be in BIG trouble!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Life As I Know It!!!!!

Okay so I am sorry that it has been a while since I wrote in here ....

Well Kori and I seem to be doing fine!!!

Oh and I told him that I posted him in here ...

And he was not even mad at me!

Oh well if he was cuz it is already done!

As for work well it's good I guess ...

I gave the girls their reviews Saturday and it seemed to have went well!

My best friend, Jessie, and I have been talking ...

And well I might be moving when my lease is up here!

I might be moving out of town!

I am not sure yet.

I still have like 5 months to think about what I want to do!

I cried friday when my boss gave me my review ...

Not b/c it was bad ... cuz believe me it was GREAT!

But I cried b/c I had to tell her that I want to move and to keep an eye on the piercing pagoda there for me so I could stay with the company!

I hope nothing happens before I get there ....

And hopefully if I do decide to go something will open up just at the right time!

I am loving life to the fullest extent :)

I love living on my own ...

I love eating home now and not eating out!

When I lived with my mom and her fiance, I always ate out b/c they didn't buy groceries and the house was so disgusting I couldn't use that kitchen to cook anyways!

If I did buy groceries with MY money when I was living there, they would eat my groceries without asking me and I barely got any of my own groceries!

So now I get to cook dinner for myself all the time and I LOVE IT!

My mom never really taught me how to cook so Ihave been learning on my own!

let me just say I can cook ...

I am NO chef or anything (YET) but the things I can cook are good! :)

Sheesh life sure has been crazy!

I have been trying to invest in making my life even better than it already is!

My friend Nickey and I spent almost the whole weekend together!

I went to her house friday after work and I spent the night at her house and then we came back to my house saturday morning spent the whole day together and then she spent the night saturday and went home today around 3:30pm!

So all in all everything is good!

Working It Out!!!!!

So I have not really updated all of you lately ....

I decided that I really have not given Kori the opportunity to prove himself to me ...

I had been really moody and pushing him away!!!!

Yet he stood by my side and called me EVERYDAY or at least text me!

Even if I didn't answer for 3 or 4 or 5 days ...

he still called!!!!

He really showed me that is he so different from the guys I am used to!

I am not used to a guy showing me how much they really care about me!!!!

I mean look at the last JERK!!!

It was always about him!

I always had to compliment him when I hardly got compliments!!!!

This is so different for me!

So anyways ....

back to the one that matters ...

Kori!

I mean for him to even still try after the one day he came over and I was really rude to him, that shows me he is in the a real relationship

he has even said things about us being together! :)

I think that maybe that will happen soon!

Which makes me even happier!

He is spending the night tomorrow night, so maybe we can talk about it then!

Gosh he really has me strung I guess you could say!

And I like it :)

He brings a smile to my face like no other has!

I really enjoy his company too!

When I saw him Saturday (after us not talking for almost 2 weeks) it felt new again and I could barley look him in the face!

it was really good seeing him too

when my key sales associate came back from her break Kori and I went upstairs and took like a 15 minute break and talked, it was really nice!

I can't wait to see him tomorrow ...

I can't wait for him to put his arms around me and just cuddle

I know you all don't want to hear me talk about all this ....

so I'll end it here! :)

 

A survey!!!!

1. How old will you be in 10 months?
23

2. Do you think you'll be married by then?
Nope

3. What do you look forward to most in the next 3 months?
Going to see my girl Jessie

4. Who was the last person you called?
Kori

5. Who was the last person to call you?
Kori

6. Do you prefer to call or text?
Depends on the situation

7. Do you have any pets?
1 cat ~~~ my baby Cookie

8. What were you doing at 12am last night?
getting ready for bed

9. Are you parents married/divorced/septerated?
separated (since I was 5, and STILL not divorced)

10. When is the last time you saw your sister?
I have no clue ... I HATE HER!!!!!!!!! 

12. How many states have you lived in?
3

13. How many cities/towns have you lived in?
4

14. Do you prefer shoes, socks, or bare feet?
bare feet or thong flip flops

15. Are you a social person?
yes

16. What was the last thing you ate?
mint chocolate chip ice cream

17. What is your favorite ice cream?
chocolate chip cookie dough and mint choc chip

18. What is your favorite dessert?
Apple Dumplings

20. What kind of jelly do you like on your PB & J sandwiches?
None .. I HATE PB&J sanwiches, and I HATE jelly

21. Do you like coffee?
NO

22. How many glasses of water a day do you drink on average?
definitely not enough

23. What do you drink in the morning?
water

24. Would you rather sleep with someone else or alone?
someone else

25. Do you sleep on a certain side of the bed?
yup the left

26. Do you know how to play poker?
no

27. Do you like to cuddle?
yup

28. Have you ever been to Canada?
no

29. Do you eat out or at home more often?
at home

30. Do you know anyone with the same birthday as you?
yup but don't talk to them anymore

32. Do you speak any other language?
nope

34. Have you ever been in an ambulance?
yup

35. Do you prefer an ocean or a pool?
either

36. Do you prefer a window seat or an aisle seat?
window

37. Do you know how to drive a stick shift?
no

38. What is your favorite thing to spend money on?
candles & other stuff to make my apartment smell nice :)

39. Do you wear any jewelry 24/7?
DUHHHHH! If you knew me, you knew the answer to that question!!!!!

40. What is your favorite TV show?
Deal Or No Deal, Medium, The Kings Of Queens, and many more

41. Can you roll your tongue
yes

42. Who is the funniest person you know?
Lisa & her kids

43. Do you sleep with stuffed animals?
nope

44. What is the main ring tone on your phone?
Beyonce ~ Upgrade U

45. Do you still have clothes from when you were little?
nope

46. What is the color of your bedroom walls?
Off white (funny thing about this is when I was reading the person that I got this from, I looked at my walls to see what I really wanted to call it and there was a bug on my wall from having the patio door opened EWWWWWWWWWWW!!!)

47. Do you shut off the water when you brush your teeth?
nope

48. Do you sleep with your closet doors opened or closed?
opened in my bedroom .... the other 2 closets in my apartment are ALWAYS closed

49. Would you rather be attacked by a big bear or a swarm of killer bees?
Killer bees I think ... A bear can tear your skin apart and I don'tthink I want to feel that

50. Do you flirt alot?
yes, I'm BAD! Especailly since I have become conceited! :)

Men! UGGGGGGGGGGGGHHHHHHHHH!

Men just never cease to amaze me!

They sure think that I am the one for playing their games!

When I say I don't play games, it means I DON'T PLAY GAMES!!!!!!

I don't care how much I like you or what you have to offer, I don't want to be treated like crap!!!!!

 

Materialistic things don't mean that much to me!!!!

You can have a car and want to buy me a car that don't mean SHIT to me!

You can want to buy me diamonds that fill a mansion ... I DON'T care!

I want love and a REAL relationship!

I am not a kid anymore ...

the big fancy things don't mean jack to me ....

so stop rubbing those things in my face, cuz I once survived w/o them and I will continue to survive w/o them!