So after typing that entry last night I thought to myself, I have to make my life better!
I know love comes to those who are not expecting it!
But I still can not help the fact that I feel empty inside!
I feel that I need to feel that hole!
But anyways, I watched some t.v. ..... knowing my luck all that was on was love movies ... save the last dance and love don't cost a thing!
I went to sleep finally around 2:30am and what do expect other me to have a dream of Mark!
I never had dreams of him and I when we were talking ...
only now that we have stopped talking I have dreams all the time!
I had a dream that he kept rubbing it in my face that he has began talking to another girl and he don't need shit from me anymore, he slammed his door in my face.
And in reality he really is talking to another girl .... and he started talking to her BEFORE him and I stopped talking ........ and she knew of me, but I had NO clue about her! She knew my name and everything!
I think maybe that's why this is even extra hard!
Because knowing this chick knows everything about me, but I know nothing about her, except what I found on her myspace page!
I don't want to care about them two, I don't want to care about him, I don't want to crave a relationship ...
but for some reason I am!