So I am so sorry that I have been a stranger!
Things have been CRAZY!
Work was crazy, like every december!
Mark and I are officially NOT talking ... and yes it's is for real this time, no kidding, it's been almost a month and I DO NOT miss him!
I am so happy that he has dissapeared from this thing called life!
I have decided to live life with NO worries on men ... for at least the next year or two!
I want to be single and take care of myself and not care about making a relationship work with some guy!
Especially after what Mark did to me!
He lied to me about us being "boyfriend and girlfriend" and well lets just say I lost it and told him to never speak to me AGAIN!
And well he came crawling back a few times, once crying and saying that he was going to kill himslef, which I've heard about umm I don't know like 5 times, so I showed no sympathy, as he was only doing it because he just wanted me to feel bad and forgive him and I told him i could not do that!
What he did was the lowest thing EVER done by any human being!
And I can not stand beside someone that did such a thing to me and pretend that I am alright by it! Because I'm not! I refuse to keep letting him treat me like a piece of shit!
He told me that he couldn't be with me because of the clothes I wear, because I don't spend alot on them! Also because he was not ready for a relationship!
But than a week later I found out he was already talking to another girl ..... and she knew about me before him and I ever stopped tlaking!
~ To Mark ~~~ NICE JACKASS! You sure made me look like a fool, and I sure fell for it!
So I saw a picture of the new girl he is talking to ... and well she is DEFINITELY prettier than me! (At least I think it was her ... it was weird how I came acrossed it, I won't try to explain, it's too confusing)
But like I said it's all good, I am happy this happened! Because now I can worry just about me and my needs ...... and hate men for a little while!
Plus I know that karma will come back to him DOUBLE and I know i will find out about it and LAUGH in his face! (HA HA HA, I know that's mean and frankly I DON"T CARE)
My apartment is coming along, slowly!
Eventually I will have everything that I need it's just hard when you really don't get paid enough to really save!
And sometimes it sucks not having a family that could give two shits about you and how you are doing!
I wish I had a family that would loan my money to get what I need and pay them back when I have it, but I don't ..... they are all money hngry and don't want to help me, besides the fact that they want to see me fail in life!
I will not! I will have a beautiful apartment if it's the last thing I get done in my life!
I will get my license and get a car!
I will be successful and my family can take NO credit for it!
I will struggle and show them that they can be mean and I can still get by .... slowly but surely!
ONE FINE DAY!
Just one fine day and my life will be great!
I will have something to smile about! ONE DAY!
Please GOD soon though, please!