Sunday, May 21, 2006

POW! Take That Chick!

Well I am glad to write this

so what do you think it is?

 

Mark and I have kissed and made up?

 

No ... not exactly ...

we made up ...

but no kisses were involved!

I know we have been talking for a while now but have not kissed yet!

But anyways,

I called him last night .....

He was waiting for me to call ...

he left me two messages yesterday saying that when I was ready for us to talk about what happened that I was to call him!

So around 11:30 last night I called him ...

I knew I could not hide from it forever ....

I just needed time to think, and to talk to my best friend and get her advice!

So we worked it all out .....

which my best friend wanted to know what the 'eye opener' was for him to realize he was the one in the wrong ....

Well I said 'that's funny you should ask .....'

LOL!

Can you guess what it was?

 

 

You betcha ...

(I hope you were right .... cuz I just said you betcha ... and that would be a waste if you were wrong)

The girl had called  ..... during our arguing time!

Now I don't know if you all remember, but when this happened he said he didn't know what the big deal was because she just said that she wanted to 'HANG OUT SOMETIME' and I said I knew it was more than that ....

well anyways ....

he told her that they could ONLY BE FRIENDS ...

the chicks response "WHAT JUST FRIENDS?"

LMAO ....

I KNEW IT!

I knew that chick just wanted in his pants!

So he said to me, "so you were right about her Theresa!"

HA!

HA!

HA!

I love being right!

I know I am being evil ... but hey .....

I needed to say that!

I think that is what was his eye opener, because she didn't want to JUST hang out, she wanted to hang in other places ....

like his damn bed ...

sorry chick ...

that's my spot ...

he's been asking me EVERY night for the past week and half to spend the night ... (including this morning ... but again I have to decline his offer again tonight)

and three's a crowd ....

so there's no room for ya!

HA!

Take that!

Now how funny was it when he gave you his number?

Okay so it's still not funny ...

but now I'm the last one laughing! :)

Oh yea and I'm lovin it!

 

now on to something else that we tal about that I am NOT so excited about .....

Him and I!

Well as I knew for awhile he is only going to be at the store he is at now for 2 months ...

then he is being transferred to either Pittsburgh or Baltimore .....

which both are a bit away from here!

So he is pretty much leaving the decision up to me ...

which REALLY sucks ....

he said there are 3 options:
* I can move with him to wherever he goes
* A long distance relationship
* Or we just NOT be together!

So this has been tearing me up all night last night and all day today ...

because I really do like him ....

but I don't want to move for 2 reasons ......

one I can't JUST get up and move in with him .... it's WAY to soon for that

and two .... I am happy with my job ... I have worked really hard to have my store and get it to where it is now ... therefore, I am not trying to just get up and leave .....

well honestly there are 3 ...

third reason ..... when I told Lisa this last night .... he response to the moving was "Well you can just get the thought of moving out of your head, I'm not letting that happen! You are staying here for several reasons!"

(her reasons are good too and I agree with EVERY single one .... her and the kids, my job, and it's too soon to move in with him)

Mark says that he really does NOT want a long distance relationship ... and neither do I ...

so it leaves me with one option left ...

and this is why it hurts .....

I can not go, I can't do the long distance relationship ...

so what's left?

NOTHING

That's right ....

No relationship between us!

How bad do you think that hurts me to wake up and know the reality?

It makes me really really really sad!

But I know it is best decision for me and my future!

I know we can be friends, but I don't think I could see him happy with another chick ...

it would hurt me really bad ...

even though we don't (and obviously never will) have a serious relationship ...

but it would hurt me to know that some other chick is where I wanted to be ...

8 comments:

z7snowflake said...

wow...Im so sorry...thats so sad. :(

misscarberry said...

It's such a difficult decision for you, I can't imagine how you're feeling right now. A short but sweet romance would make you feel better now but would only make it harder later. Just remember good things don't last forever and maybe this was meant to be. I don't recommend being friends with someone you feel for, it'll make it that much harder when he's in a new relationship, doing all the things with her that you want to do with him. We're always here for you.
Love Sam xXx

therealslimemmy said...

aw man that is a tough one.
but you can only do what is right for you!
glad you got to talk with marc :)
ttyl
<3, emily

libragem007 said...

Hi Theresa,
Gem here..wanted to let you know thank you for having me over here in your private journey..it is an honor.
You know I will read this and your previous entries...I'll be back soon.
Take care,
Gem :-)

libragem007 said...

Hi again Theresa..well..I couldn't just leave without reading *grin*...
wow..what a dillemma! I'd hate to be in your position. But maybe asking yourself this would help?
"Can I imagine myself without him?"
Do you think there's future with him? You need to ask him if there's future together..if he hesitates...you pretty much knows the answer but if he says he loves to have the future with you, (with careful planning in the beginning), to have  family and kids with you (and if you want these in return with him), then it's up to you to know in your heart if you can really let him go...or career comes first.
though situation but there's always an answer...look within.

Goodluck.
Gem :-)

eml625 said...

So sorry...

hugs,
Ellen

bhbner2him said...

Please proceed with caution.  There's an old Motown tune "Everybody plays the fool, sometimes.  No exception to the rule.  May be factual, may be cruel, but everybody plays the fool."  Today it is her......just make sure it's not you, tomorrow.  ;o)  -  Barbara

xxroxymamaxx said...

I'm sure you will make the right decision.  Or it will all work out for the best.  Hugs and GBU, Shelly