Wednesday, June 28, 2006

WHY? WHY? WHY?

Well it has been a rough few days for me .....

I am trying to find the positive ...

but it is really hard!

First of all ......

the doctor called me this morning and said that I need to come back in for another pap ....

yeah, how exciting for me?

j/k ... I hope everything is ok!

 

Next Mark had to help open a new store in new jersey ...

he left EARLY yesterday morning and had to be there today too ....

I don't know if he is leaving tonight or tomorrow morning ....

all I know is that I miss him ...

he didn't even call last night ....

or so far today! :(

I need to hear his voice just for comfort!

 

Lisa has been acting funny lately ....

she has been real distant ...

I don't know if I did something to her or not!

I feel like I have been this horrible person here lately!

To my friends and myself!

I even deleted the 40 journal alerts that I had ....

just too much going on and I can not keep up!

 

I have tried calling Lisa and she didn't answer the phone ...

but I know she NEVER hears the phone or she is NEVER home ...

she also was holding some money for me so that I would not spend it ...

it was my lunch money but I tend to spend it on other things if I see it in my wallet ...

so I gave it to her to hold until Thursday ...

but she had off today, and has off tomorrow and Friday ...

and I only have like $5.00 in my purse for lunch until she gives me my money back and I have NO idea when that will be .....

It's my fault I gave her my money and have no control over my spending problem!

I also thought that we were going to Lancaster today to get my nameplate ..... but I called her 4 times and she has not called me back yet!

I really think that I did something wrong!

I don't know what though!

OH WELL!

I give up on everything!

I have tried being a strong person, but I am just not fit for the title!

I think I will go cry myself to sleep early tonight!

4 comments:

eml625 said...

They probably want to re-pap because they didnt get enough cells to evaluate. Remember, I work in a lab.
hope tomorrow is better.
hugs,
Ellen

bmorrrick said...

Sorry to hear you're so sad and upset.  Hopefully things will get better.  I hope your friend calls and you two can straighten things out.

Take Care,
~Bilinda~

therealslimemmy said...

awwww sorry things have been rough for you
i hope everything gets better for you
take care
<3, emily

z7snowflake said...

Im so sorry that things have been going bad for you. *hugs* I hope Mark calls you soon and I hope you can get in touch with Lisa so you can get your money back. Feel better soon.